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Tea talk

August 15, 2023
I’m on my lunch break,  sitting in the garden with the sun shining and Sam is padding about the flower beds, looking for his next leafy victim. The lavender plants have suffered the most losses and just one lonely shrub remains. I’m sure I’ll find a hole in its place shortly - his paws make…
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