"It’s hard to explain and bounces around in my head looking for illogical loopholes, but that doesn’t make it any less true. When I talk to my friend, it’s like the pain and disillusion I feel almost every day melts away. I feel deeply changed, and every time a part of me is knit back together. Things that didn’t make sense, even from years ago, suddenly snap into perspective and shine a glaring spotlight on another thing that I had forgotten that I knew. Then these two things, joined together in gentle clarity find a hurting place inside of me and make it better. It’s not like psychic healing. It’s not faith healing. It’s healing based on something still mysterious and undefined for me, but very, very real. I don’t even want to question it too much; I simply want to acknowledge that it’s there and that I would never do anything to risk its existence. I’m usually the guy who seeks the compact and elegant answer. I’m not going to be that guy in this case. I’m going to be the guy who basks in a simple and new truth and nurture the friendship we’'ve created and try to not hurt so much." - Chuck

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Cats, ChuckieB, Failing English, and Eagle Scouts

November 9, 2004
One of the most challenging things about using a computer is doing so when you are owned by a cat/kitten or two. I am trying to write with one of my rescue kittens sitting on my lap(and keyboard).  He's the last of a litter of seven and is very lonely and missing his mama and…
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