#grieving

So, this 1 message was received by my soon to be ex-husband; he called all by himself like big boy and scheduled an appointment for us to see a marriage therapist. I received the message too, I appreciated being included in that message, my ex seemed to forget to include me sometimes. I will call...

It is really hard to remember to do this. I cried a lot over a basketball hoop yesterday. A stupid amount of crying over a hoop. I am going to dehydrate if this doesn't stop. It was really hard to make the choice to get a divorce, I have an 11-year-old stepson and I knew…

one year ago i spent this next two weeks saying my goodbyes to one of the only 2 women i've ever been in love with. She didn't tell me she was sick till it was too late and there was nothing that could be done. Seeing her in that bed at the hospice center is…

I screamed at you today. Hit my steering wheel a lot. Demanded that you explain to me why you decided to die. The uncontrollable, unexplainable rage hit. And my shoulders are still tight from it. And now I’m in a fog like state mixed with this sense of spiraling out of control. Why oh why…

So, My Guy flipped our car off a bridge and landed upside down in a creek and drowned. They couldnt get him out of the water. It was cold and at first they said that helped. ... Maybe it did. It took twenty minutes for them to get him out of the water and get…