#loneliness

I’m not sure if I’ve ever understood myself. I mean emotionally, mentally and… sexually. In this day and age, and being someone of this day and age, being yourself is so much easier. People are willing to accept you with both arms open and there’s no judgement or whatsoever. It’s almost like you’...

There are days when you just feel nothing. Your mind is blank and you enter a meditating-like state. But your body constantly moves. Your feet continuously walk without a destination. You end up at random places and wonder why? Why have I come here? These random places sometimes help you be at pe...

Wine of Loneliness - A poem  As she reeked of the awful smell of loneliness head spinning body shaking with no control over self she sat on her knees and prayed to a lamp post 'Turn me into a bird or something invisible, alright? Then I may not drink so much of it, it's my…

Welcome to the story of the law of unattraction. It's the story of the time I didn't manifest the husband of my dreams. It all began back in the summer of 2019. I was currently in a relationship with a guy I knew I wasn't going to marry. We were constantly fighting and arguing over…

I am exhausted today.  Like, nodding off at my desk exhausted.  It doesn't help that our internal computer systems are down and I can't do any of the work I actually NEED to do, so I'm sitting here wasting time in this diary instead.  At least this will keep my eyes open for 5 minutes.…

It's finally here!  This is my short film I created my senior year of college.  I understand it's not the best but it was my first film, first time ever having to make a longer piece from scratch.  So, all things considering, I don't think it's that bad.  Plus, it's the m...

I always got along with everyone but never fit in with anyone. In high school, I was the floater. I’d drift from friend to friend and from one circle to another and it was nice having such a diverse group of people around me but I still felt like I was lacking something. Unfortunately, I&he...

"Do you think, maybe some day soon, we could start dating again?" This question caught me way off guard.  Dating?  Kayla Manasco?  The only girl who made my teenage heart flutter?  The one who was taken away from me?  The one who got married and had a ...

I thought I'd do a trilogy of sorts about my Forsyth experiences.  I wrote this last quarter so it isn't really connected like the previous two entries were but it does take place in the park so it seems suitable to include it now. I really enjoy going to Forsyth.  It's a really nice pl...

Before I realized the toll the elements were going to take on my sinuses, I foolishly decided to enjoy the beautiful day by going to Forsyth park to do some dog seeing and writing.  I hurriedly ran my errands so I could get in a few hours of sunshine before it got dark.  By the…