#loneliness

I'm as lonely as I’ve ever been, and it doesn’t even make sense. I have friends now, I make my own money, and I’m an adult. So, what’s happening? Whatever it is, it’s crushing me slowly, day by day. It’s been getting worse and more exhausting. Will I end up alone, just as I’ve always…

Four years It has been four whole years of loneliness for me. Not being treated as a partner, regardless of how much attention I bring to the issue as it grew and grew. I warned about the consequences the neglect would build to tried to fix and address the issues- it fell on deaf ears,…

This isn't the best day of all. I don't even remeber  how does it feel to have one. I have been a whole different person since i move out. It's the same town, near my parents home. Still, everything has changed. I hate this city.  HATE. Hate is a big word, maybe the biggest of…

Paper lanterns are surprisingly deep objects. Flattened out, they take the form of a few basic geometric shapes. Yet when you open them up they reveal so many more intricacies; patterns which reflect light in strange, beautiful ways, making me wonder how an item that looked so flat and straightfo...

Hello Thank you for taking the time to read this. I am not sure yet how long or short this will be. It is my first time writing something like this, I normally never share my feelings. I am a 35 year old IT Operations Manager for a large company. I am from South Africa.…

I’m not sure if I’ve ever understood myself. I mean emotionally, mentally and… sexually. In this day and age, and being someone of this day and age, being yourself is so much easier. People are willing to accept you with both arms open and there’s no judgement or whatsoever. It’s almost like you’...

There are days when you just feel nothing. Your mind is blank and you enter a meditating-like state. But your body constantly moves. Your feet continuously walk without a destination. You end up at random places and wonder why? Why have I come here? These random places sometimes help you be at pe...

Wine of Loneliness - A poem  As she reeked of the awful smell of loneliness head spinning body shaking with no control over self she sat on her knees and prayed to a lamp post 'Turn me into a bird or something invisible, alright? Then I may not drink so much of it, it's my…

Welcome to the story of the law of unattraction. It's the story of the time I didn't manifest the husband of my dreams. It all began back in the summer of 2019. I was currently in a relationship with a guy I knew I wasn't going to marry. We were constantly fighting and arguing over…

I am exhausted today.  Like, nodding off at my desk exhausted.  It doesn't help that our internal computer systems are down and I can't do any of the work I actually NEED to do, so I'm sitting here wasting time in this diary instead.  At least this will keep my eyes open for 5 minutes.…