A fuzzy little Acorn

Yup I found this fuzzy little ball of hissing fur that looked like an acorn. Last friday on the road nearly getting run over. She was a cutie and today I found her a home. Of course that was after spending $70 on her first vet visit. But alas, my good samaritian job is over and the cutie will now go home to two little girls who recently lost their three new born kittens. All is safe in the world again….

I havent written in this OD in so long in hopes that Alexander and Andrew stopped checking it thinking I have stopped writting. I wonder if anyone still checks it? Anyway, Ive had it really hard trying to decide if I should leave Alexander or if I should stay? Or even what I want to do about it either way. I still dont know, I think I just want things to stay as they are, it is what requires the least amount of effort…

I miss him very much, and I think it would be a lot easier if he was here already. I should really start looking towards work and how I can get out of customer service…. I hate the position immensly and would really like to get out of it. I did bid on a job opening that would give me a pay raise and move me to a better part of California. Closer to my mom and little brother also. The main thing is there would be not as much to do, which I wouldnt mind, but less likely for Alex to find a job when he gets over here. I have tried talking to him about things like this and he never seems to want to stop and talk… ::sighs::

I went to my first real Rave this weekend in Hollywood, it was right off of sunset in what appeared to be an old school building. It was fun, and totally relaxed, not what the media always make them out to be. Yeah of course there were drugs, but most regular clubs that I go to that have bars and what not you can find the same drugs at them, sold in the same fashion, as a handshake or a passing of a purse or what not. My first experience with E was at a club. The rave was no different from the club except that well, there was no bar. I prefer to be around happy people instead of drunk people. Security at the rave was there and well, it too was an underground Rave, so go figure. Probably safer than the club, because they were prepaired for more..

There is another one this weekend I might check into but I might stick with my once a month promise to myself. Rave’s are more expensive about $10-$35 to get in, but I figure I used to spend anywhere from $60-$80 a night for a club, that was including alcohol. The raves would be cheaper for me to do mostly because instead of $60 every other weekend I’d only be spending $45.. more cost effective and I party longer into the night, Im getting more for less money. Im rationalizing my like to go to Rave’s when I shouldnt have to convince myself that its ok. Im an adult here, I dont have to tell myself its ok.

Its been awhile since Ive written in here, and I am so not into being poetic today. Its summer time, its play time….