Random thoughts

Im not really sure how Im feeling today. Not up, not down, just… well I just am.

I think on things, and realize Ive lost some people I really consider really good friends. Some I cant even say why, or what happened. They just stopped talking to me. It could have been simply something I did while I was either Way UP or Way DOWN, or maybe nothing I did at all. One friendship Ive kinda pushed to the limits is Joey. Hold to tight and it slips away like quicksilver. Friendship is something Ive recently learned I take forgranted. Or rather sometimes I seem to … ack no excuses…

I think the friends Ive made are important, and sometimes I push them far with in the limits of friendship. Recently Ive realised exactly how far Ive pushed some of them. My friend Melanie is one that has done far more than anyone would ever need to for a friend. That friend being me. I feel somehow that I do not show her I appreciate her friendship enough, though I do. I wish I knew how to be a better friend back.

Another friend of mine I have just learned I lost because of something that happened between me and another person we both know. Im not even sure what that thing was, but well, losing a confidant like my friend really hurt. Now Im not even sure why it bothered this friend so much..

I shouldnt ramble on like this. I should try and make ammends, I have tried actually …. Yeah…

I dont know….. Im having one of those I just dont know days

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A cry in the night,

and he understands.

A faith filled with courage,

beyond what is deserved.

Tear filled talks,

into the late night.

Faith, show through patience,

from a soul who listens.

Believing when being told,

believing is wrong.

Faith in one who

has never been shown.

Faith simply because of love.

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You know who you are that I wrote that for… I love you.