To say it in my dreams

Curious dream I had last night. I was with some friends and was walking around this high school. It wasnt any of the high schools I had gone to, rather it didnt resemble it at all, but in the dream it was a high school I had gone to. Something about something for why I was there… Im not really sure.

Either way I was dating this guy, who looked like my old elementry school friend Paul only taller. Except it didnt feel like him. You know what I mean by feel? Like it may have looked like that person on the outside but he wasnt really that person … Im not really going to say who he really was only because this OD isnt that private. Anyways I was walking with this boyfriend of mine and it was great being able to hold his hand, flirt with him, be playful and teasing. He said to me while we were walking and being silly that he loved me… then got hurt feelings that I didnt say it back right away. In my dream it had been the first time he had said it to me ever. Suddenly I was with an old high school friend of mine Robin and we were walking down this hallway, I was trying to find him because he had walked away thinking hurt thoughts. So as Robin and I were walking the hallways I was suddenly stopped by this teacher who thought I was still in high school. I had to go to this window, the kind you might buy movie tickets from and show them my drivers liscense, my work ID and my social secruity card. I couldnt find my social security number card and they kept saying they needed that as proof or they would make me go to class.

Anyways I dont find the card I stalk off saying Im going to class and run into my boyfriend. I stop and turn his face to look at me (this is when I notice he looks like my friend Paul) and I tell him Im sorry that I didnt say anything when he told me he loved me. I just didnt expect him to say it so suddenly. I told him I knew he felt that way I just didnt expect him to express it so soon. I kissed him and whispered to him that I loved him back.

Then my damn phone woke me up. Dad calling to let me know we both had an appointment with the school on Monday getting enrolled to get my systems engineer stuff for computers. Its a 10 month course that they give us two years to take and I get my MCSE, I get Cisco, Novell, Linux et. Lots of computer stuff. It’ll be more building LANs and WANs and what not but it’ll be good since I love computers. Besides its hard to get your Cisco certification. Most people only go after the MSCE and dont go any further. Being a Cisco and Novell certfied engineer will be really good.

Anyways we’ll see how it goes. Anything to really get me up and going again will be good. This has been a really hard year and I think my dad is being guenuine in wanting to help me. We shall see.