Life and Spring

I would say the last year for me has been full. I bought Justin’s house from him, put off my wedding for a year so I could do so. Lost my cat Bear, we had to put him down, it was aweful and I still cry about it a lot. Was hospitalized for my bipolr, which actually turned out to be a fantastic experience. I learned a lot. Lost a friend who passed away, the friend who connected me to Justin.

I’m getting married May 22 2009. For sure.

Spring has sprung and has affected my mood. I’m up, and not necissarily in a fun way. I spent my energetic mood on being a union steward working my arse off only to learn that hard work doesn’t pay off if you’re white in the midwest. Its bs.

I got moved from a seasonal person at work to a permanent person, was able to go back to the night shift which is actually way wonderful for me.

New boss is great, thought getting away from my old bosses boss was going to be great, no its not, she’s now my new bosses, bosses, boss. Shit floats. Its f’ing lame.

Had a dream and now I want my hair like it was in my dream. Too bad I’ve got curly hair right now and the dream hair was straight. I don’t think I’d be brave enough to pull off the hair in my dream anyhow. I’m a social coward, don’t really dare to be “different”, jeans and a tshirt is safe, normal hair is safe..

I need someone to talk to badly…