I hate titles.. mood lift..

So today I am feeling far far better than I did after reading the book in the previous entry. Still realizing my own flaws but at least I’m a bit more coming to terms with them.

We got snow. Like more th an 24 hours of straight snowing snow.

I think its really pretty really I do, I just hate the stuff. Rather I hate that it gets cold, and I can’t drive in it.

I miss being out and social.

I should ask my friend Mike how often he goes out dancing. I know I am fat and what not and not in my cute 20’s body but I totally miss going out on the town. My husband really isn’t into it and well it sucks.

I’m a bit manicy today. Its day two of getting up before the sun. Its not a lack of sleep though. A slightly limited one but I am sleeping. Getting at least 6 hours so its not to manicy. But getting up and having breakfast and having had cooked it on my own makes me feel accomplished.

God is it sad when something so simple that people do every day makes me feel like I got something accomplished today.

Bah the depression side of bipolar sucks.. makes me feel lame to be happy about having breakfast.

Sad, I showered too yesterday. Cooked dinner.
I’ve been upright aka not laying down for three days now. My old therapist used to say no matter what activity I do, I can’t do it laying down if I want to feel my mood improve. Its true. Laying down to watch tv, or to devour the books I’ve now got on my kindle had my mood falling just as fast as ever.

So I guess getting up to do the daily stuff helps. I’ve had the motivation to get stuff accomplished for two days now. Lets hope I can keep it up for maybe a week. I need to get laundry done. Can’t just sit around in my pj’s for weeks on end :/