in a single breath

Everything is fucked.  You would think this were a dream.  All of it.

A fresh start, a new slate, an empty room and a dusty bed. 

But no one realizes that I never asked for this to happen.  A sister that I never understood, and a relationship that tore my life inside out.  And now it’s the absence of both that keeps me up all night.

Things have changed here, where I anxiously sit.  Death has pervaded this room, this house, my mind.  Time will make the feeling less, they say.  Funny that no one realizes I’ve been numb from the get go.

I wonder if in a year I’ll even remember the past four weeks.