Timmy™
July 13, 2003

Maine.

Status Report

    Wearing: Thundercats shirt.

    WinAmp is playing: ThunderKiss `65 – White Zombie

    Last ate: Chicken patty

    Last round of masturbation: Three nights ago.

    Entry Start Time: 10:34 PM

    Based on Esther’s “Senses”.

They’re gone and I’m alone. Relatively speaking.

As I mentioned briefly in the last entry, Kivudet, General Disk Error, and Grunge went to Maine. (Were you paying attention? *smiles*) I can’t say that I’m lonely at the moment, but I know I’m going to get bored over this week. It’s kinda comical to me how often Kivudet and I have hung out this summer. I’m still not using to having a male friend. It’s still new to me. It’s still “Oh wow, I’m comfortable with him.” It’s still, “Oh wow, it doesn’t bother me if I know he gets harder, firmer erections than me.” Like steel, he claims.

Now, the question you should all be asking is, “Gee, Timmy, why did your friends GOTO Maine?” You should also be asking, “Gee, Timmy, why didn’t you go with them and be your pimpin` self?”

If you haven’t asked yet, go ahead, ask.

No, really, ask. I won’t bite. What’s the worst that could happen, can I say no?

Before The Great Hard Drive Crash, I would have been able to cite a date. I still have all the saved conversations. Alas, I burned them directly onto a CD. So the date created/modified is horribly off.

Got a guess where I’m going? Come on, it should be horribly obvious.

Her name was Rachael.

No, wait, I CAN cite the date. I believe it was July 20th (or 22nd), 2000. (I remember the date because it was around this time that I met the incredibly hot sister of Arizona. Back in the day, I had hardcore profiles. The one I had at the time went something like this:

What, do you find something offensive about the word MASTURBATION?

Being the average female, she felt compelled to IM me. We hit it off? Nowadays, I’d probably completely write it off. But then… I had never really talked to a random person before. A stranger. I wasn’t fully trained in the art of talking to someone I had never met before online. She’d always tell stories, and I’d be like, “I don’t have stories.” *smiles* Hey, that was then, I didn’t realize how many stories I had already. I hadn’t learned the art of letting yourself go.

It was the fourth conversation, I believe. I forget exactly how it went (and I don’t feel like checking), but I told her that I liked her. She liked me, too. I’d never liked anybody online before, so I didn’t have any experience to draw upon. Not to mention I had nobody to tell me, “Dude, you’re an idiot.” Actually, I had a friend at the time. Ziggy. I think he was wowed by her picture, just like I was. I don’t feel like uploading the picture. She was beautiful. And she got away with lying about her age to me. I was 16 at the time. She lied and said she was 14. She was really 13. I figured this out when I realized Anah lied about her age.

I suppose it was just a summer thing for her. I was online, anyway. Not really sure what I did with my time, but I was there. I can’t really imagine spending a lot of time online, without OD. When school started up, she started ignoring me. Maybe not on purpose, but she wasn’t around nearly as much. I wrote poetry, teaching me a valuable lesson to never to try to vie for a girl’s attention when she obviously won’t give it to you.

And from Rachael, I met some of her friends. Anah was actually one of the last ones I met before she completely went AWOL on me. But, she remains significant. As I said, Anah lied about her age. She said she was 13, a year younger than Rachael. She was really 12. I had just turned 17 when I met her.

And the seed for me loving minors was born. *snickers* No, I never liked Anah. But, she liked me.

Through Anah I met Marissa. This was weird. I mean, the situation. Marissa… I’m bad at describing people. We seemed to be able to have endless conversations. If I remember correctly, she and I hold the record for .. no Skunkie holds that, nevermind. No… Regardless, I remember we once talked for something like 14 hours straight. (With a dinner break. Hey, monitors hurt your eyes.) Thing with Marissa is that our conversations were about nothing. Good conversations, less filling. She seemed incapable of serious conversation.

So, I guess I got the idea that I liked her. I say “guess”, because I’m relying on my memory. Though, I suppose we rely on memory to remember all past things, unless we GOTO a journal. I was content to leave things as they were, but Anah, being the youngin` she was, talked me into “going out” with her. Never give your phone number out so easily. She begged and begged. So I caved. It took about a week for me to see that I shouldn’t have caved in the first place. This is the only time I have ever initiationed a “decreased relationship status”. (As Carlin might put it) I met Marissa in April of 2001. That fiasco happened in May. By July, I don’t think we were really talking.

Before letting her go, I made one little mistake. She was so impressed by Timmy that I put her down as the President of the TimmyFanClub. That is, I put her AIM SN on one of my former web pages. I thought having my quote unquote friends would be a good thing.

One Christopher Martino got ahold of her SN. And some other people. It irked me that people who never even knew who I was were talking to them. I mean, if it weren’t for me, they wouldn’t be talking to them. I guess talking to all those girls make me feel nice.

Martino and Marissa hit it off and… Stuff. I got so mad that I created the Martino Directive. In short, you don’t give out someone’s SN without checking with that person first. I’ve since repeled this, since it’s kinda pointless. There’s nothing wrong with pasting conversation without screening. It’s broadcasting your friends SN’s on the internet which is bad. If a rule (or law) does not serve it’s original intent, it should be repeled. *nods*

Fast forward two years. Rachael is long since gone. I haven’t talked to her in ages. Anah, we IM once every three or four months. Marissa, I haven’t heard from in ages. Last I heard, she hates me, though I wonder if it’s an exaggeration. Kivudet didn’t want to go on this Maine trip. For him, one reason is the same as me. They are in the past. And, he’d much rather spend time with his girlfriend. There is another reason for me: There are other girls now, ones I’ve never met. Further pushing Maine into the past as a distant memory. Rach will never be “up there” with Angel and Skunkie. After I realized what a bitch she was, I was over her quickly.

For General Disk Error, these girls are much in the present. Now he feels the joys of having lots of girls think “other guys should be like you.” Grunge? Grunge doesn’t go online. Grunge has no life. : (

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The only thing that offends me about the word “masturbation”, is that it takes as long to say, as it does to do it. (for some of us, that is).

*ryn* I have seen American History X many times,and that movie is emotionally painful to me. Not all of us have been able to have a change of heart and continue to stay alive. *hugs* Monica

Evil Peanut
July 14, 2003

RYN: That’s depressing, but it’s true. How come everything that’s true has to be depressing? >:| I had an internet boyfriend once, haha…I was like 16. We were so dumb.

Wow. Uh…..sorry to hear about the green poo. That’s scray. Esp. when you share it. 😛 I mean…the info. not the poo itself. Please, Timmy…do not share the poo.

hhmm…..do my boobies get energized at night? I don’t really think so. Sometimes….I guess they do. But not all the time. I found them an okay resting place. Nothing spectacular. Boob homes are hard to find. Well…good ones.

Nope…..I wasn’t thinking of a giant penis as my desktop design…..though, that is an interesting idea. And well….that would be pretty exciting. 😛

You have to love Cracker Barrel. Yummy food. Shopping. All in one place. I don’t much care for cooking…..mostly cause I just can’t cook anything….so, having a place to get good food is always nice. Eat there and love it, dammit. Don’t make me come up there and force you to like cracker barrel!!! 😛

Yes…..I cried after reading Cosmo. But no….the two things weren’t related. 😛 Silly. Although….knowing all the good sex things…..and not being able to do them IS just about enough to make me cry. 😛 Oh well. One day.

Picking on my toes….how mean. Don’t criticize them, please. 😛 hehe. Its the way I have my feet positioned….they look crooked cause of that way. Glad you like the peephole. The razor is sexy??? Hmmm….taht’s interesting. Well…whatever you say, Timmy. 😛 Of course….it is kinda curvy, like a woman. Yeah….they jack up the price on razors and shaving cream, too. Its crazy.

Norah JOnes is the greatest. I love her music. Its so soft and sexy and seductive. It either makes me sleepy….or puts me in the mood. its multifunctional music. I worship her!! Just simply adore her music. I’ve played that CD about 800000000 times.

Glad you liked the diagram. I figured that from the pictures….you couldn’t really get a sense of the apartment. Its hard to really take a room in, since there’s only so muhc space to work in, seeing as my apartment is MICROSCOPIC. So….I figured putting the diagram in there would help. 😀 I’m handy dandy like that. 😛

Thanks for the sexy bra comment. I try. Gotta have good looking underwear to wear for…….. me, apparently. 😛

I was this >< close to NOT including the vibrator pics. And the pic of my panties. I just felt it was TOO personal. And I feel a little embarrased with all the comments I've gotten. Oh well. Like I said….everybody knows I do it. And……you asked, and it didn't break my one rule…..none of the vital girly parts naked…..so, I had to do it. I'm bold. I'm brazen. 😛 I'm silly.

Yes…..SUPER tampons. I’m a heavy bleeder. Cause I know you want to know. Tampons…..normal every day wearing. They’re much more comfy, and I don’t usually get cramps if I’ve got a tampon in. The lightdays things….as panty protectors. That string from the tampons can conduct blood down. I don’t want to ruin my panties. TMI again. 😛 The pads….for light days when my tamp

tampons won’t work cause they’re too high absorbancy, and you shouldn’t use them then (I don’t bother getting lighter absorbancy tampons) and as backup while I sleep….to avoid accidents. You’re now officically inducted into the realm of period products. You’ve been where most men don’t dare go.

Our freezer is empty. We don’t keep much in there. We don’t cook or anything…so there’s never much in there. Also….our freezer is small, so we can’t hold much if we want to. OH well.

Glad you approve of my choice of panties. I hvae so many colors and patterns. Of course..I’m a panty whore. I woudl, wouldn’t I?? 😛 I thought the burgandy would look nice on film. 😛 Sure….I’ll play dress up. I’ll help you find a nice pair of panties that will look nice on you.

Well……lets just say…..we got the idea for the picture entry from each other. You thought you got it from me. I thought I got it from you. So…..we got it from each other. I can share rights to it. hehe. 😛 Can’t wait for pictures!! heheheheh 😀

Alrighty. I have sufficently note whored myself. So….I think I’ll call it quits now. Clean up. heheeheh. 😀

Oh christ…..you’re gonna note whore me back?? Damn. *sits back and prepares*

OH…..by the way. You haven’t masturbated for 3 days??? *feels your head* No….not to see if you’ve got a fever and its making you sick and thta’s not why you’re not doing it. Just to see if you’re getting a fever as a RESULT of not doing it. 😛

Alrighty…..alrighty. Pain in the BOOB. Not pain in the ass. I have been corrected. 😛

Yeah….the empty cart thing IS pretty damned funny. I laughed my butt off all night. I just wish my butt would have really come off. Oh well. A good laugh always feels good. Even if it is at yourself.

*ryn* Yeah,I’d like to stick with one person in a lifelong relationship,however I’m old and jaded to that possibility ever happening. I think that may be why I stick up for those people who are polyamorous,they have so much love in their life and for me to be jealous of them would just show others how lonely I have become. *hugs* Monica

“Giving notes feels best when they’re to someone you know matters. Or something sappy like that.” Ahhhh. Isn’t that sweet???? I could just cry, its so sweet. If only you hadn’t just burped. 😛 hehehe

I love the speakers on my computer. My CD player gave out on me a long time ago, so when my parents got me a computer with speakers, I was happy cause I could play CDs. Now I have a seperate CD player. So….I guess it doesn’t really matter. *shrugs*

I can honestly say I’ve never whipped it out to pee and noticed how thick my weiner is. That’s such a shame. Of course….being one of those people who was born with a vagina..that might be the reason.

I usually go at myself at night. I don’t know why. Thta just seems the right time to me. I’m usually too groggy in the morning to think or care about it. *shrugs*

Yes….I’ve seen those love dolls. Those crack me up. 😛 I once had a dream that I had a male doll like that. No…..I wasn’t using him or anything. But I dreamed I ordered it…and was looking at it. It autoinflated out of the box….so there it was..lying on my floor…at attention….and my roommate was coming into my room,and I had to hide it. Hehe.

We don’t have a Chi-chis. I can’t go there. *whines* oh well. I’m not much on Mexican food. *whispers* It upsets my tummy. I like it. but…well, side affects. :-/ Ohh….don’t mention caf food. We had THE WORSE food. Gross. Really gross. It was……frightening. 4 years of torture. Except for these mint brownies. Hmmmm. Brownies with mint frosting. I love mint. I love choclat

cholate. They only had them once in a while, but when they did….I’d steal several, put them in my fridge, and covet them for all my life. SOOO good. I miss those things.

I have hair on my feet. But I shave it. I’m a women…we’re “supposed” to do those things. It sucks. Bras. Shaving. periods. Ugh. :-/ I should get a sex change. Na.

Yes…..spam people with pictures!!! That would be FUNNY!!!! Just not me, kay?? At least……..no butt bombing, kay?? hehe

Tampons are crazy expensive, for what they are. I mean….cotton waded up in a plastic or cardboard tube? this is insane. Crazy that I spend like 5 bucks a month that LITERALLY ends up down the toilet. 😛 I mean….straight there. I buy food, too, and that does end up down the toilet. But….that goes other places first.

All birth control should be free. Or at least covered by insurance companies. Its not a common practice for the pill or patch or ring to be covered by the insurance company. That’s stupid. $200 a year is a LOT cheaper than if the woman gets pregnant, and insurance has to pay for all her prenatal care. So…doesn’t it make sense to cover all bc?? yeah. I think so. Cheaper than wellfare.

it’d make more sense to be free than to have lots of unplanned/unwanted pregnancies that cost everybody lots of money every year. Duh. 😛

hhmm….keeping nudies of msyelf on my desktop?? No. I don’t think so. I’m not that much impressed with my naked body. I don’t want to have it plastered all over my computer. Now…maybe those shots of me in my new panties. I liked those. Those, I coudl see putting up. Actually…I think I’m going to put that pic of just my eyes on as my desktop.

Yep. I’ve got all KINDS of ovaries. I dont’ think anybody realized I have that much ovaries. Hheehe. I love being able to surprise people. I love being the shy, sweet, controlled girl…..then doing things that are the opposite of shy, sweet, and controlled. hehe

Oohh…..I haven’t made cheeseburgers in a while…..and I do make kick ass burgers. Hmmmm. I wil have to get that stuff next week!!

Yeah…..a pair of pants….a pair of panties…a pair of scissors. it IS all crazy. But I have heard them called “a panty” before. That just sounds weird though. Hmmm. Oddness. We’ll get you some pretty lacy panties. I’m sure you’ll enjoy them. I figure we can pick some out that will fit you fine. It won’t be too hard.

Ahh. sorry for your down libido. Thta must suck. Well..when it comes back…..hope you and your penis enjoy yourselves. Alrighty….and now that you’ve just wiggled your thing at me……..I think I’ll call it a night. I’m sleepy, anyway…and all this note whoring…..it really takes it out of me. *yawns* Night.

Band Candy
July 15, 2003

You have a Thundercats shirt? *bows*

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