Old Email

This is an old email that I sent about two years ago, and I want to keep it.

A few weeks ago I went to Virginia Beach with my High School Band for a competition. We traveled all day and arrived down there around 5 or 6. Around 7pm I went upstairs to my room to eat my dinner. I wasn’t hungary, but I was feeling a little dizzy, so I thought it might be good to eat something. Well, I made it through the doorway, but fainted before getting my food. No one found me until 10 or so when my room mate came into the room. I was a little shaken, but on the whole fine. I had something to eat and went to bed. That was first incident. Through out the weekend I was constantly dizzy. The world felt like a giant cradle that was swinging from side to side. No need for me to tell you that it’s hard to play oboe when this happens. My room was on the 9th floor and the elevator ride was difficult, to say the least. But with the help of friends, like Justin, Jamie, Brian and Rebecca I made it through the weekend. I made it home and was relatively okay. My world was still spinning, but I was still going. I saw the doctor and he diagnosed me with labyrinthitis, an inner ear virus that makes you constantly dizzy. He gave me medicine which didn’t really help, but he said it should only last a few days. Tuesday night I fainted again. This time it had nothing to do with lack of food, water or oxygen. I got up off my bed to go help my mom and I fainted in my doorway. Needless to say, I was scared. We returned to the doctor and he said he wasn’t sure it was just labirynthitis any more. So the tests start. Blood tests have shown nothing. Heart tests are in happening now, but as far as they can tell it’s not the heart. On Monday I had a glucose tolerance test. It was horrid. You can’t eat anything after 12 midnight and then you go in and they take your blood. Then they make you drink this nasty glucose drink. Then for four hours they take your blood on the hour. Once, they couldn’t find my vein for over a 12 hour! I got stuck 4 or 5 times before they found it! A four hour test turned into 7 hours at the doctor’s office. Fun, fun, fun! Those tests results won’t come back till later this week. Meanwhile, I’m still getting dizzy and now I’m noticing that when I get dizzy, I get a horrible headache in the same place every time. My doctor said the next step is going to involve looking at my brain and neurons to make sure they’re working. But these headaches are not a good sign. I spoke with a doctor friend of mine and he said it could possibly be some kind of brain tumor. But there’s a large chance it’s not. But that doesn’t really reassure me. It could be any number of things and there are so many things to choose from. Right now, the doctors are narrowing the categories of what it might be. But the waiting is really killing me. I can’t figure out what’s wrong and it’s tearing me apart. This is why I really need your prayers. There are so many other things going on, I’m having a hard time dealing with this. Finals are coming up, my grandparents aren’t doing well, my parents and I aren’t on the best of terms. And this goes beyond the fact that I’m a teenager and they’re adults, also my parents. My mom’s stressed about the end of school, my dad’s stressed about work. I feel like I’m letting everyone down, like my teachers, my friends, my classmates, my family. I’m not being the best personfriendstudentcousindaughter I can be. This is the tough part. Trying to admit that I feel worthless, because I know I’m really not. But my heart and my head are not always in the same place. I really need your support and prayers, especially now. Things are pretty tense at home and it’s started to stop feeling like home.

Yah, so this is not for like today, but I want to here, so its here.