December 22, 2004

Christmas in Japan +

I lived in Kobe, Japan from 1993 to 1996. I was there for three Christmases and celebrated several times with my private lesson students. The following two pics are from ’94:

1994

And the following is from 1995’s Christmas dinner:

Ah, the good ol’ days.

Although the winter of 95 was a dark one emotionally, and if I really think about it, I wouldn’t want to go back to that, there are times when I miss that guy.

Had I known how things would turn out, would I have done much differently?

I dunno.

They say that all you are is the sum of all you’ve been and done, so if I was able to change things in 94-5, would I be a different person now?

Pour me another shot, and I’ll think about it.

2-3 shots later: You betcher ass I’d be different! Hell, I might still be living in Japan! Probably would not be married- but who knows? Maybe we coulda worked things out.

Although… by Christmas 94 I had already heard the "not gonna sleep with you again" speech and saw no reason for that to change.- and despaired.

The earthquake that stuck Kobe January 17, 1995, just weeks after some of these pictures were taken put all of it in a stark, no chances of it getting better light.

Things were so fucking clear after that. I gave it five more months and then gave up and asked for the divorce.

It takes two to tango, but if one don’t wanna dance, neither do.

that’s all for now.

Only I will notice the naked Kupie doll standing in the chair in the background. Whatsupwiththat?

monacita

December 23, 2004

*chuckles at the note from Sassy* Sometimes I wonder if I would have done things differently had I known what was to come? All of the events of my life had led me to be who I am now. I like who I am now but the subject is still interesting to contemplate.

~ms breathless~

*also chuckling at Sassy’s note* RYN: Thank you so much for stopping by and I hope you come back 🙂 I have read a few entries…you have a great diary! I have added you to my favorites and will be back to visit soon. Happy Holidays!!

“I’m sorry that you’re doubting yourself. Keep trying- we’re not all liars, married, and/or jerks”…. you sure?? Sorry couldn’t resist! LOL

battle-axe

boy am i a mess. if you are the sum of all the things that happen to you.where is my theripest. inside me i guess. but that is a whole another entry for my diary.but you have proved yourself strong mentaly and physicaly. lub jew

Earth And Sky

RYN (What makes me laugh) Your “low key-ness”, Your dry sense of humour, Your honesty…How subtle you can be… The Naked Kewpie doll as pointed out by the above noter. No bad habits, El Gato… See look… I’m giggling already…

I noticed the doll too… it creeps me out. 🙂 2-3 shots later- you really are funny. Who knows how the course of events we encounter change things? It’s fascinating to ponder.

melondrop

All I noticed was the dolly on the chair. So what did you eat for Christmas dinner? It looks like a cake and some cranberries in a bowl. I regret big chunks of my past. My biggest staying as long as I did with the man that I loved the most but beat it all out of me. It took me a long time to recover from him. Now I am with Charlie many years later and think why did I stay? I guess hindsight is

20/20.

RYN: Yes, that would be the Nicene Creed It seems Arius got shot down in his questionings of Jesus being less than God etc, lots of bickering insued and Eusebius of Caesarea drew up the words of the Creed and presented them to Constantine who pretty much told everyone that’s the way it was gonna be, so stop your squabbling right now! Sometimes it’s good to be emperor, but not so good for any free

thinkers, back in that day or even now for that matter. The only difference…government holds court these days. ~the feline~

Keep the good memories and let the rest go….to quote Bob Seeger, “Turn the page….” That was just one of the many lives you will lead before you die, you know. (smiling) Would love to hear you say something in Japanese….~the feline~ (and it better be nice!)