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52 entries for the month.

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I just woke up after a couple hours of sleep. my tee shirt wet with sweat, and a nightmare echoing in my mind.

For some reason, I was apparently in Japan again, doing my laundry at a laundomat, and since I didn’t have a bag, I had folded my clothes and walked home with them in my arms.  I got so far and realised that I had dropped shirts and pants and socks and walked back the way I came to find them and couldn’t exactly retrace my steps and couldn’t find many items of clothing.

Ever swear in your dreams?

I saw some Japanese guys and asked them if that was such and such a river; I was lost, all of a sudden.

I ran into a foreigner family, a man and woman and some kids from the US. apparently.  They took me to their place.  The woman was giving me the "oh it could be worse" thing. and the husband was telling me about his killer cat.  A confusing array of scenes took place and I found myself at the edge of a dry pool, a couple of cats sunning themselves on the bottom.  The man took a young rooster and threw it into the pool, saying "you’ll see it now – she’s a real killer".  One of the cats got up and began circling the rooster, who was oblivious to his fate.

I woke up.  "Fuck it.  I don’t want to see that".

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Could be it was the call I got from my Friday night woman last night, who was unhappy I hadn’t made a bigger move on her as we shared the same bed at someone else’s house.

Ya wanna know why not? 

 I’ll tell you anyway.  She gave me a speech about how she didn’t wanna fuck, but got out of her panties anyway.  I let my hands roam her body.  She made no effort to do anything to me; she just gave directions.  Five for five now have just lain there and expected me to "rock their world".  Five for five have not even touched me, just lain there.

Fuck that too.  Participate, don’t just lie there.

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No great surprise to me, but there are icy conditions out there; many accidents already, at 5:35 am.  I’m glad that I drive on the west side of the district.  Mt. Hood got lots of snow – 4 inches in 4 hours.

My 25 bus does not have "on-spot chains" on it, but there are only one or two hills I’d really worry about…but my bus is full of kids by then,

My apartment is on a well traveled street; it sounds like traffic is moving at the usual speed, so I don’t think I’ll have any problems getting to work, but I’m thinking that others will – the east side of the district gets more ice and snow than the west side.

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I have edited this entry pretty heavily, rather than just delete it or make it private, and notes can now be left on it.  Note whore that I am, I made private some of the notes regarding it; yours is not gone, just privatized.

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