Oh snap

 Of course "snap" is a substitute for another word.

It’s happening, what I was afraid of:  The car has 30 miles of gas left in it and the insurance bill is due the 10, the day after tomorrow, and I don’t have enough money for either.  I was very afraid this would happen.  I have $5 in my Savings account and about $80 in checking and it is not enough.  The insurance is $130 and gas is over $3.88 a gallon.  I can put more gas in the car, yeah, but I can’t drive it after Saturday, with no insurance.

I can’t find the pay day calendar I was given a month and a half ago, so I’m not sure when the next day day is.  That check should be nice… but when I pay the bills due, it will be more or less gone.

Jesus christ, I have never been so poor before.  I have had less money, I think, at some time in the past – when I moved in here and was still unable to work because of the brain injury, but my expenses were much lower and it wasn’t such a big deal.  Now, I have a job, and I won’t be able to get to it.  I do have some bus tickets, so transpo is not impossible, but oh shit, this is a "cascading failure",  The insurance renews THIS month, and in that case, they won’t cut me any slack – this happened in February too, so I know. Then, at least, I knew that the next week would see a $79.00 Unemployment deposit in my account, but I don’t foresee anything going into the account for at least another week.  I just can’t drive without insurance: for one thing, I owe lots of money on the car, and for another, if anything happens (they call that an accident) I will be completely screwed.

I guess this is what "up the creek without a paddle" feels like.  Oh shit.

It’s too ironic:  I have a job but I can’t afford to get there. I can’t drive, I can’t go anywhere, and it’s just too damn bad.

Onwards stops here, dammit.

 

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