Well, it’s a beginning I suppose

My weight has hit the limit that I can stand. Actually I can’t stand it which is why I know I am at my limit. My clothes are all too tight to be comfortable and the only thing that fits now is one pair of pajamas. I don’t know if my hubby is sick of seeing me in them yet, but I sure am sick of being in them!

The 2 youngest boys will be here in 7 weeks and the first thing they are going to ask to do is go to the beach. We made our first trip there last year and they loved it so much that we ended up going every weekend for the last 3 weeks they were here! So it’s time to do something about my weight.

I have a bright shiny elliptical machine right in my bedroom. I haven’t used it in months and months (obviously lol) because when I look at it, I associate that awful awful feeling of wanting to pass out with it. I could do 30 minutes on it when I first got it, but it would take everything I had to voluntarily invite that feeling.

But I need to lose weight and the machine is there, so I told myself I would simply start slow and build up to the half an hour I wanted to do. 5 minutes is a paltry start, but it IS a start. And I would keep going only until I felt like passing out.

All I could do was ONE minute, people!! That’s all I could do and I had to sit down on the bed to recover!!! I burned up 6 whole calories though. Well, I guess that tells me more than anything how much I need to get on the damned thing huh? So I did one more minute after my heartrate went down but at least it woke me up. I was having trouble keeping my eyes open but I am fine now.

Wow. And bummer. I wonder how long it will be before I can break 2 minutes? *sigh*