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I haven’t written in a long time now.  I don’t know why, I just haven’t felt that need to get things out into the open like I use to.  Been seeing Krystal again lately, but I am close to cutting it off.  It is painful to have almost everybody I know say “Are you guys togeather again?  Cause you are an amazing couple, you guys have such chemistry!”  I hear this on a daily basis.  But of course Krystal doesn’t want a relationship at the moment, she admits to us being a great couple, and she really likes me she just doesn’t want anything at this time, I do.

So I am moving on and have started searching for other “prospects”  I went on this website, and have had girls all over me as of late.  I must be doing something right, cause they came a callin’ for me.  I want to see what else is out there.  I would go back to Krystal cause I have a gut feeling about her and I, and everybody else I know seems to think that way too.  She just isn’t ready to commit herself cause I think she has that same feeling that once we hook up it is for LONG term..  So I can accept that and will play her game of seeing what else is on the playing field.  I have gone out with a couple fine looking girls…. hot, but not for me.  I have a few others lined up now, one seems just like Rebecca in looks, but she seems more chill in personality.  Funny thing is she went to my school and was in my program, we’ll see where that one goes.

I have been feeling very attractive lately as in the last 2 months.  I just have this confidence about me, not egotistical at all!  I never let myself goto my head.  But people have been complimenting me alot and it feels so damn good.  Krystal and I went to the Loblaws Christmas party togeather and we won prizes for best dancers, since then about 7 people have said I am a great dancer. lol  (The rave scene might have helped with that one).  Also 3 girls have told me that I am a great guy and would be “a great catch.”  I can’t help but smile when I hear these things… but then again I think, “why the hell can’t Krystal see it if all these other girls do?!”

I have been watching soccer like mad lately.  It is number 1 in my books, hockey a close #2.  But since the NHL is locked out there is no season, and soccer has compensated… so good.  GO MANCHESTER UNITED!!!!!

I can’t stress how much I love life lately.  Nothing is bothering me, or nothing worth writing about anyway.  I just love everything about it, the people, the emotions, the stories, the environment.

I don’t know if I said in past entries that I quit smoking pot.  Well it has been since my birthday, I have smoked proabably a total of 6 times in that time.  Which is great.  I wouldn’t have smoked, but all these sessions were spur of the moment invites.  It is hard for a former weed slut to say no.  The most recent incident was hilarious!!!  I went out with TJ (aka Claypool) to his buds place, there were 4 or 5 guys there.  Two of them acted like they were such stoners… like you know really into it… and have been for a long time.  I didn’t say shit, I just took it all in.  So we eventually went out to smoke, I only orginally wanted to chip $5 to the session, but one dude insisted I put down $10 cause buddy gives better counts that way.  So I did.  Anyway out at the session these guys were mind blown at my technique on the bong!!!  I thought it was funny… they said “You talk like your some amature then you hit it like a pro…”  I said “Nothing to really brag about, I use to smoke daily for almost 3 years there. I have really cut back.”

This one dude Billy was really trying to impress me.  I don’t know why, but he kept telling these stories that revolved around how good he was at something.  I think he just lacks confidence in himself, so he feels he needs to prove  himself to others…. Anyway, he had this one story about dancing and he was demonstrating his skills at the “robot” and other things.  I just sat back and took it all in…  I knew I could destroy him in poppin’ and robot stuff.  I love my breakbeats and breakbeats revolve around that dancing style.  Oh well, I just thought it was a hilariuos night.

Music of the Moment: Progressive House set (Digitally Imported http://www.di.fm)
Today I Feel: Very good.