Day 2

I can’t moderate. I went 132 days without a drink about a year a half ago. What triggered my relapse? The world cup. I figured, I can have one while I watch the England match. Eventually it started to consume me again. I hate it!!!! I HATE IT!

Well my last drink was 2 days ago now, (The Champions league final). I got way to wasted. I don’t remember half of the night. I remember watching the match at the supporters club, Manchester United winning it… us all celerbrating. Then, I have no idea. I remember bits and pieces afterwards, I fell over I was so drunk and cut up my face. I remember walking thinking I could walk home, I don’t even know where I was. Cops pulled me over, asking where I was going, I said home. And they told me my home was in the other direction. I flagged down a cab (when I could have taken the subway) and paid $35 fare to get home. I ended up spending over $100 that night. I missed work, and I called in sick again today cause my face is cut up. I still feel ill and couldn’t eat anything yesterday.

I told my GF that I fell rollerblading, which is entirely possible, I do some stupid stuff on the blades! lol

I am done with drinking. It is a waste of money, makes me feel like shit and I don’t want to lose another GF due to drinking. I want to do this for her, but also for me.

I remember last time the first few days were the hardest and it got easier as time went on. I did it then, I will do it again. I don’t want to drink anymore. I don’t want to hide it from people anymore, I hate this double life I lead.

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