Day 50

50 days, it’s hard to believe it has been 50 days since my last beer.  I feel much better without it.  This may sound silly but I honestly felt like I was dying my drinking had gotten so bad.  I had this deep cough most mornings like my body was trying to force something out of my body.  I felt like hell, I was vey irritable, I wasn’t eating properly.  I just couldn’t do it anymore.

Now 50 days later, I am eating better, I feel stronger and healthier.  I bike to work instead of taking the car.  I am teaching myself to cook more balanced meals.  I feel more relaxed and have more time to myself. I’m saving money, even though I am living in a more expensive apartment and I am buying things for myself.

Everything is better.  I can’t think of one thing that has gotten worse since I stopped drinking.  I do feel like a social outcast kind of when going out, but luckily that has been limited due to being busy with moving stuff and the summer soccer season.  I will learn not to drink in a social setting.  So far I haven’t had to explain why I’m not drinking.  The biggest situation was about 3 weeks ago when I went to a concert a friend wanted to know why I wasn’t drinking and I just said I didn’t feel like it.  For some reason she was taken back that I wasn’t drinking and was pressuring me to have a drink with her.  I just said, no not tonight.

Well here’s to going forward. 🙂

Music of the Moment:  Chemical Brothers – It doesn’t matter
Today I Feel: Fantastic!!!!!! 😀