What better time than now?

This is a constant battle. Sure it becomes easier to avoid alcohol as time passes, but the cravings are still there. Today was one of those days. I think because it was so beautiful outside. Nothing I enjoyed more than kicking back on a patio and enjoying the afternoon with a pint (or 6).

I watched this Craig Ferguson video clip which I fall back to when I am not feeling strength to pull me through. For anybody who hasn’t seen it, I definitely recommend it.

Craig Ferguson speaks from the heart

I can relate to it, it reminds me that I am not alone when it comes to drinking. It also reminds me that once you reach “day X” you aren’t magically cured. It is a constant battle and the AV is just waiting to take over again, we all have to be strong and not let it. We have to remember where we came from and why we wanted change so badly. Life is better without beer. At times you may feel that isn’t the case, just remember we aren’t like other people out there. We can’t control drinking. We can’t relax and have a drink. (I can only speak for myself) A bomb goes off inside of us and screams for more. We will do anything for that next drink. I know I don’t want to go back to that. I was a slave to the pint glass, I would like to pretend that I wasn’t… but I was. My life was revolving around drinking. That is no way to live.

I will remember today because I didn’t fog my mind with beer, for that I am thankful.

In other news I am great. I am moving in a month to another part of Canada. I am moving out to Prince Edward Island on the East coast of Canada. I have lived in the Toronto area for my entire life. The opportunity to do something big like this showed itself to me and I have decided to cease the opportunity and LIVE. I will be moving 1700 KM’s away from where I currently live. I am dropping everything and going with my girlfriend. To experience a new way of living in another province. It sounds crazy, but I figure I only live once and what better time than now?

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