Dear World, there are better things you could do.

This entry is my "day" eight and eight is my FAVORITE number. I don’t know why that is, but it is. (Wow, only eight? This feels almost overwhelming…)

42) Someone who made your life hell.
— I’ve made my own life hell many times. It is a character trait that everyone has, but sometimes it gets the best of us and takes over for a moment or two. I can definitely say that I have been my own worst enemy at times. It is NOT a proud thing to say, but it is true.

43) If you could talk to everyone in the world for five minutes, what would you say?
— With the assumption that I will be saying the same thing to all seven billion and not seven billion DIFFERENT things, my speech would probably go something like this:

People of earth, you have all been gathered in city squares, positioned near radios, seated in front of televisions, or connected to cell phones to hear the important things that I must say. I know that most of you will not take what I say to heart or truly care that I have even said any of it, but I hope that those of you who do take me serious gain some sort of benefit from this.
The world is a horrible place.
There are people everywhere, every day, tearing each other apart through violence, vocabulary, and power. It hurts to think that this could ever be true, but it is and the facts have to be faced.
This is not what I want to change, though. Your thought here may be "Why don’t I want to change it?" but you would be misunderstanding me. You see, I wish to change this all, but it is not what I am focusing on. What I truly want to change is how the world reacts to these things.
I want everyone to stop taking it to heart. When someone is deplorable to you, your life, or your reputation, it’s a terrible experience, but often times people go overboard. Revenge, though it may feel like it is, is a terrible way to go. Suicide is the wrong option. No one will get anywhere with introversion, either. Really, people, if you ever contemplate ANY of these thing, you must know that there are better solutions for you. Maybe you can’t see them at the time, but they ARE there and they WILL show themselves eventually, trust me.

I think that’s close enough to five minutes, or at least an outline of it.

44) Would you fall head-over-heels in love with yourself?
— Absolutely not. I would HATE myself, I think. I don’t think we would be good friends. I dunno…

45) If money were no concern, what would you do with the rest of your life?
— With breaks taken at intervals for travel, I would probably spend life in Trinidad writing and being a mom. That sounds like a nice plan. (:

46) What is one thing that you need to do next?
— I saw this on the list of questions and decided that it would work for me to say that I should be working on packing, or at least generating a list of things I need, because we (Mom, lil sis, and I) leave Thursday morning to visit a college and some other stuff. I really should be doing that. But I’m not. I’m being lazy. But I’m also writing. That’s sort of a plus, I think.

47) How would your parents feel if you were in a relationship?
— I think Mom would be in an "I told you so" stage for various reasons, the step dad would be acting like a nice guy about it but really thinking that I’m an idiot, Dad would find everything wrong with the situation, and Lizzy would probably be pretty cool with it.

Now that the sis is going to sleep, I won’t be able to pack, so I’m just going to type a list of thing I’ll need to pack tomorrow. Bye, Ara, I love you!!!