Positively Positive

Alrighty, Ara.
I think this is day eleven. I plan to do an entry filled only with positiveness (because positivity is not a word, according to my Google spell-check). Let’s get started, shall we?

61) Something people seem to compliment you the most on.
— I think my hair. I can’t remember too much praise NOT about my hair. It’s oddly colored because I dyed it after long intervals, so it’s almost like a red-to-black faded rainbow. 😀 Plus, it’s a decent length. (:

62) What is your greatest achievement to date?
— Hm. . . I’m proud of myself for starting and actually sticking with this OD and for starting and (so far) sticking with a deviantART, but I’m also proud of coming out of my shell a bit, holding myself in a couple of relationships, and other things. I can’t say that I know what my GREATEST achievement is, but I have to pick something. . . *sigh* What could it be? I think that my greatest achievement would be helping my sister get through her early elementary years with my own goofy homeschooling project. I used to help her with her homework, make her do projects from discarded textbooks over the summer, and other things like that. I honestly think that I’m a big reason that she got through those stupid program changes and the brand new teachers who had no idea what they were doing.

63) Picturing the child that you once were, what were you once really good at?
— Upon finding old notebooks, I’d say that even Little Kid Me was a pretty great writer (for my age, of course). I used to write collaboration stories, solo stories, unfinished chapter books, super short stories, and all sorts of things. I think that, even though I wasn’t the best, I was pretty dang good and I have to say that in comparison to my siblings, I had some fantastic spelling when I was younger, as well.

64) What is the most marvelous thing you’ve ever seen with your own eyes?
— There are so many possibilities for this. I could say a sunrise, a sunset, the emergence of a butterfly, my stupid brother finally getting a damn hair cut, etc. I think that the MOST marvelous, though, would have to be the support that a major portion of my school shows for the Special Ed students. Last week, the SE students had their annual talent show and I finally got to go to this one. When I saw how many people were genuinely impressed, excited, and enjoying the show, I was amazed. It’s truly marvelous to see that even the most horrible of people had enough of a heart to treat these students with such respect and admiration that no one would ever expect from the hateful students at my school.

65) What is something you’re thankful for right this very moment?
— People. My friends. The friends that I hadn’t even realized were friends. They’ve made this week so much better and helped it fly by much quicker. They’ve made me not want my days to end and certain classes to last just a bit longer. I think that I’ve actually started to become less nervous around them (for some reason, in person, I get nervous talking to them) which is great. I appreciate having someone to talk to who hasn’t been judgmental and hateful to me and actually seems to care about what I think, write, or do. It’s a nice feeling.

66) What do you want to tell yourself right now?
—Hi, Me. I want you to know that you are fantastic. You are wonderful. You are gorgeous. You are perfect. You are intelligent. You are special. You are worth it. You deserve a wonderful life. You deserve happiness. You will reach that happiness one day, I promise. You have so much to live for. Sometimes it seems like there’s nothing to go for, nothing worth it, but there really is so much. Remember all of the great experiences you’ve had. Remember the people you’ve met. Remember Nina, your brother, Nani, Kelly, Stephen, CJ, Adam, Daniel, Mimi, Debs, Faith, and everyone else that you’ve enjoyed being around over the years. Even though friendships might end, times might get hard, or parts of you mind think that life just sucks, when you feel like things will never get better, remember that they always have before. There will be new AND old friends, there will be easier times, there will be better days, just like there always have been.

67) When did you last speak well of yourself?
— Hehe, just now, really. That’s what this whole entry is about. I’m proving to myself that I’m not someone to be negative about. I might even be giving myself a bit of praise worth looking at later on if (I actually had to change that from ‘when’) I hit that Not Me phase again.

I’m sleepy. It’s 11:20~ p.m. I need to get some sleep. Good night, Ara!