Depressing

It is extremely gloomy outside today and it is not doing anything for the way I feel.  Winter depression is already sinking in.  I am usually happy this time of the year I do love fall and all the colors.  But we have gone from summer to late fall like weather.  No warm days no sun.  It rains almost everyday or is just cloudy and gloomy and depressing.  Last night it froze and I am sure most of my flowers will die now.  A part of fall I do not like.  The leaves are changing slowly around our house but I have been on the other side of town to visit my parents and the trees are all but changed and loosing their leaves.

I am not looking forward to winter.  I will have to keep myself busy with scrapbooking.  I have to have my son’s scrapbooks done by June when he graduates.  That is another thing.  He wants to apply at all these schools away from home.  I am afraid he will get there and hate it and will just give up.  Our younger son took his Driver’s written test yesterday and failed!  He just got done with the class before school started.  I kept telling him to study it’s important.  But no he knows it all you know.  So I told him we would retake it today so he can remember stuff.  Hopefully he passes or he may end up taking the class over again.  That really sucked.  He was mad but he can only be mad at himself for not studying.  He said he did but that was like 20 minutes.  He needs to read the whole pamplet and not just a few pages.  He is in no way ready to drive anyway.  He is so immature.  But I am sick of him being so babied and not doing anything I thought he would get into this.  So that was a huge letdown yesterday.

I stopped at my dad’s on Monday and he said he talked to a surgeon.  My sister is going to talk more to the Dr. since she is in the medical field and understands it better.  My dad has a bad back and will probably need surgery.  He is worried about coming out paralized.  They tell everyone that.  Yes it could happen but that is the risk you take.  He said he would rather live with the pain than be paralized.  I don’t blame him because that would mean he has to go to a nursing home since my mom couldn’t take care of him.  They live in a two story house with the bedrooms upstairs.  That wouldn’t work.  It really gets harder when you get older to deal with this kind of stuff.

Work is going pretty good.  I am off until Saturday and then work all day.  I prefer to work by myself.  The one girl who leaves all the time works 9-1 and I am sure she will be in and out all day.  I don’t care she can leave for all I care.  She doesn’t do anything anyway.  But they won’t fire her so why complain it doesn’t do any good.

I really need to get something done around here.  I worked out and then grocery shopped and now I sit here and read and write.  I need to get something done because I know I will be at the DMV for a while this afternoon again.  Gosh I hate that place.  Although yesterday it was not very busy.   Let’s hope he passes today.  I just couldn’t believe he failed.  He is a B student.  It blows me away!

Well have a good one!

ME