*sighs*

I don’t even know if you will read this. Part of me hopes you will and part of me hopes you won’t. I guess I’m bound to be half-satisfied–what else is new?

Look….I love you. I do. I love you and you are a good person. I firmly believe this, no matter what. But sometimes, things turn into give and take sort of situations….if a bunch of people are annoyed with you, its often good to look at their point of view and see if maybe, just maybe, they have a point. I don’t want you to be this sad. I don’t want you to be this upset. I want more than this for you. You deserve more than this! But you need to adjust to the world as it is…..things don’t always adjust to you. The ball’s in your court now. What are you going to do?

You know, you like to block people off from you. You say you’re a solitary person. I don’t believe it for a second. All that happens when you’re alone is you get more depressed. That’s no good. Don’t do that to yourself. Don’t cut me off, don’t cut me down. I want to help. Let me talk, listen to me, what harm can it do? You might begin to see how you’re approaching this situation all wrong….and you can FIX it. You CAN. Because you’re a good person. And I love you.

…Nevermind. Some people aren’t worth my effort.

No matter how hard I try
You keep pushing me aside
And I can’t break through
There’s no talking to you

I’m sick of it. If you want your friend back, I’m here. All that I wrote above still stands. But not until you’re done being juvenile and selfish. I need to take care of myself first, and that involves not chasing after you, not crying over you, and not obsessing over you. Thats right.

If I’ve learned one thing from you, its that you don’t need to be romantically interested in someone for them to hurt you. Like, really hurt you. So thanks for the lesson.