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Last night I was singing to you…

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My mom’s downstairs sobbing. She asked me who I wanted to invite to my graduation and I said, well, who wants to come? I don’t really care who comes and I don’t know who’s been expressing an interest. She said well, how about Lucille and Arthur (my aunt and uncle)? I said, sure that would be great, if they’d like to come that would be cool. She said, well if they come, you’re going to be expected to stay with us after graduation and have a meal with all of us–do you really want to do that? And I said, Well, I sort of wanted to hang out with my friends that day after graduation.

She burst into tears.

“Do you even want ME to go to the fucking graduation??”

Shocked, I said OF COURSE Mom! I need you and Dad there!

“Well, I don’t want to fucking go. Because what’s the point, if you’re just going to piss off right after it and not even bother to acknowledge us??? Forget it, I don’t want to go to your goddamn graduation.”

Still sobbing, she turns to my dad, who is comforting her with phrases like, “Don’t worry about Emily, we can do something the 3 of us as a family after graduation, shhhh.”

I said “I’m so sorry, Mom! I didn’t mean to make you upset….I didn’t know it meant so much to you….of course I’ll hang out with you guys after graduation, if it means that much to you! I’m sorry….”

*shakes her head* It didn’t work.

She’s still crying.

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…Last night I was singing to you….

I never made promises lightly
And there have been some that I’ve broken
But I swear in the days still left, we’ll walk in fields of gold….we will walk in fields of gold.

You’re who I’ll miss.

one fine day

May 17, 2003

hrmmm:-( that’s rather frustrating…I’m sorry Em. She’s just sad and hurting and doesn’t know how to say anything to you, I guess. ((hugs)) though, I kind of can see what you mean:- Well, (((((hugs)))) again and I love you!

Ugh…wow, your mom is so irrational! *hugs* Hope things improve.

Violet Librarian

*big hugs* Emily, it’s NOT YOUR FAULT. You didn’t know what she wanted, and if you didn’t know what she wanted, you can’t possibly expect to play all the right cards. You’ve done all you can right now…and things will straighten out. I think part of it is that she’s being emotional about you graduating…and things push her buttons more. I’m sorry if this was not helpful or stupid or…yea

h. (Silly, silly FOD…)

oh emily….i’m sorry, you don’t deserve this…((hugs))… ps: thank you. :-/

You know, I think a good part of the reason your mother acted like that is because subliminally she is terrified of “losing you” TRUST ME….I sort of go through the same stuff with my mother all the time. It’s the worst. If it’s okay with you, I think I’d like to email you sometime. My address is: lotusgrrl@shaw.ca Please email me if you’d like to sometime. I think ****

***you and I have more in common than it might seem on the surface. So, feel free to drop me an email sometime, and make sure you identify yourself so I don’t get all confused and end up looking like an idiot! 🙂 -Liz

*hugs* I’m sorry that had to happen. Don’t feel bad though… that’s not going to make things better. On a much happier note, it was great seeing you yesterday!

oh hon….ellis is right. its not your fault. NOT your fault. *hugs* i love you. always.

RYN: Hey – thanks for your note. Parents can be really lame sometimes, but things always seem to work out alright in the end-I guarantee you that your mom wouldn’t miss your graduation for anything. On a new topic: were you one of the three to whom I told the Josh Cutts story? With the curly brown hair and glasses? I think I met you last year, but I’m not sure if I’m thinking of the right perso