well then

They say that anger is just love disappointed….

“Alex and I were talking and we agreed that it’s not your parents that are wacky, it’s that the whole family is a little off.”

Child, hold on….it’s this day, not you, that’s bound to go away.

“Her mom was going on this trip thinger, so she told Alex she could bring a friend with them and Alex asked Ellie to go, so they’ll be on this thinger for a while.”

Cause I can’t stop loving you….

“Your suspicions were pretty much right, Em–I mean, she considers you two basically over and done with.”

You’ll be in my heart
Yes, you’ll be in my heart
You’ll be in my heart…
…always?

*sighs*

*cries*

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Why isn’t there someone for everyone who can just be steady and solid? People really suck, with their flaws and their shortcomings and their spectacular ability to get sick of each other. There needs to be a way to be able to depend on someone…some sort of ability so that whenever and whatever you need, there will be one person who will be there in every way. Life is such a goddamned rollercoaster. It would be nice to know that there would be someone there who wouldn’t change.I HATE not knowing how my day is going to be when I wake up. It would be so much easier to know one thing, instead of knowing nothing and hoping for everything….

Unfortunately, that’s ridiculous. What I’ve got right now is so much more than many have….and I do value it, I do….and I love you, and I need you, and I couldn’t deal without you….I just….I’m sad. Sometimes when I feel real let down by so many other people, one great person just doesn’t fill that hole. I don’t know. Fuck it.

Oh well.

doievenknowwhatimlookingfor?
…..no.

As far as I’ve ever seen, people never truly fill holes left by other people’ts not how friendship works, thank god. You could totally “deal” without me, which is a very good thing. Not that I’m planning on leaving :- is it possible that you know more then you realize because the spectrum of knowledge that would be comforting to have is narrower then you’re thinking it is? ’m probly wrong

I’m sorry 🙁 ((hugs)) I think that you’re amazing though and I hope that I can help to dry your tears and ease your pain. I love you:)

Life is a journey, it has ups and downs, just like the mountains and the valleys. But you would get bored if you knew what was coming each day.RYN: Scarily enough you do sound exactly like me. I didn’t meet my boyfriend when I was in such a depressed state, he was my best friend, and we had always loved each other since we first met, decided to make it official at Christmas. I carried on…

…cutting until about March, my boyfriend helped me stop and supported me the whole way through it. It was difficult though being 150miles apart from him, and I came home a lot. And now when I get depressive I know he’s there, but he gets sad because he doesn’t think that he’s doing enough for me, but there’s nothing more that he can do. But we work it out being so far apart…

…because we love each other so much. Long distance relationships are difficult, there needs to be a lot of love, patience and trust. It’s not something everyone can do, but we’re doing fine, and we are stronger than ever. So don’t worry about it, you’ll be okay, just have to work a bit harder than other couples. Thanks for your notes. Love, xx

*giant hugs for you* I am back, and I am in total agreement with you. Also, you ARE amazing and STRONG…so VERY STRONG, even if you may not feel like you are. We’re ALL here for you, always. *hugs* Hope I see you around at some point. 🙂

RYN: Thanks. I’m very glad too, as I’m sure you’d guessed. 🙂

RYN: COOL!! *likes that muchly*

RYN: …thank you for being so supportive and nice and stuff…*hug*