dream

Dreams are funny things. Ha.

See me NOT laughing.

I was late to my music midterm, so I was walking really fast….for some reason, I was back in Hamden, and I was walking down Whitney. It was sorta rainy, so I had my head tucked in, and I was walking fast. Suddenly, I saw Aaron walking ahead of me with another guy, just chatting, probably walking to school–it wasn’t the right way to walk to his school, but whatever, it was a dream, lol. I called out “Aaron!!!” really happily, and he didnt seem to hear me–so I called his name, louder–he had to have heard me. But he didn’t turn around. I sped up, so I was closer to him, and said his name questioningly again, and this time I could tell he heard me, but he didn’t want to embarrass himself in front of his friend, so he kept walking and talking. I stopped walking and fell behind….the person I was walking with was like, “Who was that??” and I didn’t answer….I watched him get further in the distance, still laughing and being goofy with his friend, and I felt so sad–but it also sorta made sense.

Don’t even interpret that for me. I know exactly what it means, all seventy bajillion layers of it. I love having anxiety dreams….NOT. *sighs*

I love having dreams in general. Its sorta weird to firgure out what your mind’s trying to tell you. I know it hurts when its mean or angry stuff, but its ite, at least you know now. Anyways HOLLA Mari*

oh hon….i know that its scary, but you have to remember….its an anxiety dream. its not supposed to be the truth….lemme know if you want to talk about it, ok? *hugs* love,

I have anxiety dreams/nightmares whenever I get stressed out… they really suck. Only last night I didn’t sleep for a minute. I somehow could not fall asleep. I guess not being able to sleep is better than having nightmares. Anyway, I hope you don’t fret about it too much, and I hope things are ok between you and your boyfriend… I’ve been causing problems with mine. : /

wow. i can’t believe that someone still reads this shit that i call my diary. okay then. i stay for you, my friend 🙂

one fine day

October 21, 2003

oh em ((hugs)) wow, I really know where you’re coming from with that dream…I know the feeling, and it really is SO stressful to have those dreams:( I know that it’s not much help to remeber that it’s not based on reality…so all I’ll do is offer comfort, I suppose and tell you that he loves you…((hugs again))~

“I called out “Aaron!!!” really happily,” and he turned around and smiled hugely at me and stopped to wait for me. As I got closer he said joyfully, “hey em” …. okay, so that was supposed to be the way it’d happen in real life, but uhm, i have the feeling i should stop that now. *hug* they’ve all said it, hun. just a dream, no matter how unsettling.

Violet Librarian

October 22, 2003

RYN: …tanks. You shouldn’t have to deal with anxiety dreams, because they SUCK. *hugs* love,