$&#@$%$%!&$%^#!!!!!
I should really sleep….after all, it’s 12:30 and I’m going to be rudely awakened before 5 to catch my 7:30 plane. Back to school. Yeah. No wonder I’m writing an entry.
Fuck it all! *throws a temper tantrum and bawls her eyes out….AGAIN….* I’m a college student, I’m supposed to want to go BACK to college, I’m not supposed to LIKE break!!….oh, but wait, one small detail. The guy I love with all my heart is staying here, and I’m looking at ten more weeks, 1000 miles away from him. Yes, I know, we have webcams and AIM and phoning and all…..but nothing, just nothing, can replace a hug. I will miss his hugs, so fucking much.
I went to go pick him up at his house at 5:30, so that I could say goodbye to his family–his wonderful, wonderful family, who are more supportive of me than my own parents are. I basically LIVE at their house, I see them every day. His mom, who has the single biggest heart of anyone I’ve ever met, who makes me want to cry with her kindness. His dad, who is just so sweet, and if Aaron grows up to be anything like him then he will have done quite well :-P. His sister, who is scarily like me, and so goddamn mature for her age, who I could well imagine myself being friends with for years and years. Nancy, David, Hannah–damn I’m going to miss you guys. I love you all.
He came back here and we packed and cuddled and talked….I cried….he hugged me. Then I drove him back home. Crying. Of course. I am SUCH a girl. *furiously wipes her face, to no avail*
He left me a note on top of the clothes I’m wearing tomorrow, and he recorded a video with my webcam of him saying “I love you.” Perfect. He’s freaking perfect. So goddamn freaking perfect….and I’m so lucky, and he’s coming to Carleton with me next year, and everything has worked out beyond amazingly for me….but I still don’t fucking want to leave him for nineteen out of the next twenty weeks. I don’t. And therefore you must read this pitiful entry and roll your eyes at me, cause it’s my diary and I feel miserable.
*goes to try to sleep, which will not work and will also soak her pillow with tears*
You guys sound like a dream couple, truly… hope your new years transition was fun and spew-free.
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Some people love their breaks! *hopes that Justin does* LoL. Man it’s better that you are the girl than both of you! It’s horrible because we are both bawling when we leave and one one stops the other one starts them up again. Web cam? That’s SUCH a good idea!
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emileeeee, i sorry. ’tis hard, i know. come visit me when you get here? 😀 -bethy
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I shall miss you <3
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he sounds great. it sucks you can’t be closer to each other. love can survive it though, i have a feeling yours will. xxx
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((hugs)) I love you hon…don’t worry about crying, I can see that it’s really hard…it is really hard to leave him. but here, you always have a shoulder to cry on whenever you need it…it’ll be okay ((hugs very tight again))~
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my boyfriend and i live apart at uni, but we get to see each other every 2-3 weeks, i can’t imagine going 10weeks without seeing him. you are very strong. good luck at college, just be strong, and remember that you will be with him soon. thanks for the note xx
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I can honestly say that I understand. I used to be one of those people who’d roll eyes. But not any more. My god, I couldn’t imagine nineteen weeks without my other half. But it’s wonderful that he’s going to school with you next semester! You and he are both very lucky to have each other.
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It’s so great that he’s going to Carleton next year… you’re so lucky. Leaving is one of the toughest things, I know… but at least you know when you’ll get to see him next… things will work out fine. 🙂 =^.^=
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