Updates on work, reno and marriage plans

Am really glad that tomorrow is a Public Holiday. Although it doesnt fall on a Mon or Fri, I’m happy enough that I dont hv to work. And as it falls on a Wed, it kinds of break up the week and seems to make the week pass faster.

Hv started on my new job this month. It’s a new learning experience; I really hv to learn from scratch. Everything is totally different frm my previous job. The terms, the things I do, the environment. Currently I’m still very free, not having much to do. It gets bored at times and I almost dozed off at certain times. This new office is very quiet. I’m siting in a room with 2 other colleagues. Wish I can bring a small radio to work so that it’s not that quiet but I dont think it is nice to do that.

Went to watch the fireworks last Sat with J. It was crowded as expected. J wasnt the least interested in fireworks actually. He was saying he cldnt understd why Singaporeans love to watch fireworks when he saw the crowd. But I appreciate his company whenever I say I watch to watch fireworks. I noe he will accompany me even though he complains. =)

He said we seemed to be closer after we ROMed. I think so too. I guess it’s the feeling of knowing that u hv each other for life and the fact that we r each other’s partner now, no longer boyfriend and girlfriend.

Our reno will be done soon. Am pretty satisfied with it so far. His dad has been the one monitoring the reno and liaising with the contractor thur far (he noes the contractor). I admit that I do appreciate his help but sometimes I wish he wont be so ‘on’ abt it. He can go to our house every day and stay there for hours to see the progress. And I dont like it when he returns and then say J and I didnt do anything at all. I mean, yes it’s true that we didnt do much with regards to the reno, but we also didnt ask him to go and monitor everyday. I was like, it’s you yourself who volunteerly goes there every day to check on it. So dont come back and tell me that you did all the work. But of course I didnt tell that to him.

I think I’ve learnt not to take the things his dad said to heart slowly. He will always be having lots of ideas of our house and said we shd do this, we shd do that and no, we shdnt do this or that. In my heart, I was screaming, come on, it’s MY house and I will do whatever I like so dont tell me what to do. Last time, I will smile and entertain him whenever he has these ideas, be it reno or marriage or whatever. But now, sometimes I will just pretend I didnt hear him.

Hv still yet to fix a day for our customery as his mum has yet to consult her source. Really wish she can do that soon as I think time is running out.

The travelling to and fro work is making me tired everyday. Now I hv to wake up at 6.45am, get out of the house by 7.30am. My dad drives me to the mrt and I’ll take the train for 30 mins and then a bus to rch office by 8.30am. It is worse after work as it is more crowded and I’ll hv to take public transport home. So far, I hv not rch home b4 8pm. I had tried a few methods in my quest to get home earlier but I think I will not escape the fate of needing at least 1 and a half hours. I’ve started to sleep on the bus and mrt. As I’m not those kind who sleeps during my journey, I know that I am tired when I begin to sleep on buses and trains.

Really wish that I can move into my new house. Sometimes I really dislike my parents’ old thinking of only moving in after the wedding ceremony. Cant understd why they cant be more flexible, why must they insist on it at the expense of my travelling time, my energy level etc. Hey, it is my life! Even though they r my parents, it doesnt mean that I hv to obey them. Rite now, I listen to them becoz I respect them. Ok, I can sort of understd their reason but still, I wish they can be more flexible and not still live in the past era. 

Somehow, there is this rebellious streak within me and makes me want to do what I want. I feel like telling them that I still listen to them as I respect them but I am old enough to do what I want to do and hey, I am offically married! 

Sometimes when I think abt the marriage preparations, I will feel kinda kan cheong. Like there will be a thousand and one things to prepare. And J doesnt seem to be the least interested at all. Sure, I wish I dont need to hv the wedding banquet, bridal gowns, photo shots as well but the fact is, we do need to do all these. Sigh. So there’s still the need to recee the plc, find out the pricing, do more research, etc etc. And when I think abt the fact that his parents cant help much in the financing, I feel uneasy. I dont know how we r going to save, but we hv to do it and we will do it.

In a way, I blame and dont blame his parents for not being able to help us out. I blame them becoz without their financial help, we hv a heavy burden. I dont blame them becoz I know I shdnt blame them as it is something they cant help it.

Oh. How hard it is to be a nice and considerate person.

Wednesday, 0011 hrs.