freakin’ aggravated!!!

hey guys. . .i really wanted to reply to all my notes and everything but im seriously not in the mood. not in the mood for anything. i’ve been all emotional all day and wanted to cry about every 5 damn minutes and i cant stand it. i have no idea why!?!?! but i did read all your entries everybody. im sorry i wish i could be happier today. my big sister made me sad, then her husband made me sad. and my uncle made me sad. then my mom said a really mean thing tonight when we were out playing bingo. which pretty much ruined the whole bingo thing for me. i dont think i’ll want to go in a while. i wanted to cry all night at bingo. im glad i didnt just burst into tears. the cute bingo caller guy would’ve thought i was nuts. who cares what he thinks anyway right. and my cousin sort of blew me off and i called my big sister even though i was a bit mad at her and she knew it and then she still blew me off. now im waiting for my little sister to get off work and call me. she will probably blow me off to though. but if she doesnt i’ll go hang out with her and her boyfriend. oh joy right?? but she can usually cheer me up when im like this. i know this entry is all sad and stupid and everybody is probably thinking hey your life really isnt that bad get over it. i know its not that bad and it could be a lot worse but why does it even have to get this bad. i know things happen for a reason but when im feeling like this it seems like there isnt a reason for anything. my birthday is next week and everybody had all these plans and they totally backed out on them so now im not doing anything. i dont even want to do anything. why do people tell me they’ll do things then just back out on it. why even bother telling me you’re gonna do something nice and special. fuck off!! ok now im really gonna burst into tears. . .