ggaaahhhh!!!

i feel so much better than i did my last entry. things with my family are all ok now. im not pissed im actually rather happy 🙂 anyway my mom apologized and everything with her is cool and my sister and her husband decided that next weekend well actually this saturday they were going to have a party at their house for my birthday now. but my weekend sucked just ‘cuz i was all depressed the whole time. until sunday night it got better. i went to my sisters house and her husband gave me vicadin. like i really needed it but oh well it was cool. then they all got me drunk in the hot tub and i passed out. it was great. and ever since then i’ve been happy. i do have this craving to get high and im not sure why but i really feel like smoking pot!!! i know i shouldnt. i know i shouldnt have taken that vicadin either. blahhh!! i swear im not an alocholic drug addict!!! hehe anyway this weekend should be pretty cool. ummm friday i am going to this concert up here apparently like 2 bands from california are going to be here. im not sure what the hell is going on. but im going but im trying to find someone to go with. my friends said they would meet me there but i dont really wanna go with them. because on saturday they are all supposed to be coming over to my sisters for the party. which should be tons of fun. jell-o shots all around!!! haha i get so wasted off those things!! i cant wait. anyway i have to go do stuff that doesnt involve sitting on my ass. . . i’m bored. i love you all very very very much!!! random song quote of the day: song: boulevard of broken dreams artist: greenday quote: ‘i walk a lonely road, the only one that i have ever known, don’t know where it goes, but it’s only me and i walk alone’