9:41AM

ok umm my weekend was NOT exciting. booo!!! i worked saturday morning and got in a fight with my boss and thought i was going to get fired. oops. but actually he admitted he was wrong and apologized to me so that was a good thing. and i still have a job. which is good. but one lady i work with is sick so i have to cover a few shifts. oh well more money i guess. which i need for this check because im a bit lacking on hours. saturday after work i went to my cousins house for a big family thing. it was fun. but guess who was there? sean. yeah kelly (my cousins husband) wants to kill him now though for being a complete freakin’ idiot. apparently sean thinks that im just too good for him and he cant even attempt a relationship because he doesnt understand how i can be ok with him and what he does for work and just ‘how he is’. so maybe he is right if he’s going to act like that maybe i am just too good for him. kelly told him not to be an idiot because sean and kelly do the exact same thing for work and are best friends and do everything the same pretty much. and kelly told him this and also said look at the woman im married to she’s perfect and knows how to accept the things in my life and i know michelle can too. but whatever i dont know why im getting upset now. ‘cuz we didnt get mad at each other or anything we just stated the fact that we cant date. but we are gonna hang out again. stupid gorgeous crazy boy!!!! so yeah that was my saturday night. not my idea of a hoppin’ good time. oh well. sunday wasnt much more exciting. actually it wasnt too bad i layed around all day, watched tv. took like 4 different naps. i got soo much sleep this weekend it was insane. thats probably why i woke up at 7:30 this morning. and last night my sister came over for dinner and after dinner we both dyed our hair. she dyed the underneath of her hair and i dyed the whole underneath and i did big strips through the top. it looks really good. its still pretty intense right now. this stuff only lasts for 3-6 weeks though. after that im gonna get it back to my original dark dark brown. it hasnt been that color since i was 15. i kinda miss it. but this red is really fun mixed with the brown color my hair was before. i look extra hot now 🙂 oh i took some pics this weekend. here i’ll post some. . .

now these are before i dyed my hair. i need to take some more this week with my new hair for you all to see. oh yeah i’ve been chatting with this guy online and usually i dont get excited about boys i meet online ‘cuz really whats the point. but this one guy is driving me crazy and i try not to let him but i cant help it. im being dumb. he actually doesnt live far away at all and he comes here and travels around here for business a lot. actually within the next few weeks he’s going to be able to make a trip here. dont know what i should do?!?! boys are dumb anyway. actually he’s not really a boy he is 27. and he’s not spectacularly hot but he’s good looking. and he’s fun we talk on the phone a lot too and well i just dont know. im done rambling about that now. doug has called me about 36 times over the course of the weekend. i dont know what to do with him. i try to be ‘just friends’ and he knows i dont want to be all boyfriend/girlfriend with him and ever since i told him that he’s been more intent on getting me to spend time with him. i hate chris for telling me to say those things to him. i knew there was a reason i was doing things my way. ok i dont really hate chris. he just decreased in his ‘yummy factor’. again stupid boys. i really wonder what is wrong with doug. i can see why guys start to hate girls for being to attached and clingly. girls are pretty stupid too, when i think about it. i mean i know i let myself get worked up over silly things. and i just wonder if thats whats going through dougs mind too. ‘cuz when i like a guy sooo much i know how i act. and i know i overreact sometimes. i wonder if he thinks that way. i actually highly doubt he thinks he overreacts. he probably doesnt even know i think he’s psycho. he probably thinks what he’s doing is ok. god he’s annoying. i got paid but i can cash my check because its presidents day. how retarded is that. who cares about presidents day. it doesnt make sense to me. i just want to go cash my check and pay my bills. even though the stuff i have to pay are due for a few weeks i hate having the money and not being able to pay for the stuff yet. i guess just having hundreds of dollars that i cant really spend drives me crazy. wow i’ve really rambled today. oh crap i need to call my boss and tell him what time im coming in today. i think i’ll go in 2 or 3 hours early. havent quite decided what i want to do today yet though. probably nothing i might as well go in as early as i can. i forgot to do my laundry this weekend. my favorite jeans are dirty. grrrrr that upsets me. i should write more often that way my entries wont be this long all the time. it takes forever to write. ok not that long but still. oh look i have email. . .random song quote of the day: song: october nights artist: yellowcard quote: ‘here’s my heart, i’ll let you break it’