oh the sean-ness of it all

ok so guess what!?!?!?! even though i had sean in my bed last night and we were alone for hours and hours. . .we didnt fuck. . .nope. . .we havent fucked at all yet. its crazy. we had fun. i mean we had lots of fun  but we just havent done it yet. not thats that is a bad thing. its kind nice. i dont know really. we rarely get alone time so its nicer for us to just stay up and talk and cuddle and be cutesy like that. i mean i do wanna fuck him. like really bad. especially when he does things like sneakily slides his phone between my legs when its on vibrate. or when he just gets all caught up and throws me against the wall and holds me there while we make out and he rubs my down there. . .or well you get the picture. haha. anyway last night was cool. we had lots of fun went to my cousins house. we had a little ‘party’ type thing, some dancing and drinking, loud music. so much fun!!! sean is such a hot dancer!!! i love it. most guys i am with hate dancing or only do it when they’re drunk so they look all retarded. but he’s all tall and sexy and dances all sexy. growl. . .anyway like everybody that was at my cousins house was like ‘oh are you guys dating’ or ‘oh sean is this your girlfriend’ and he had his arm around me the whole time but he’d just be like ‘nope, cant afford one of those’ and im like if he cant afford a girlfriend right now then i cant even imagine what it would be like if we started dating. he’d spoil me rotten. he already does a good job of taking care of me when we’re out  but big drama started happening when we were there so me and sean got out of there pretty quickly and came to my house where we were all alone and played a bit and just talked and talked for hours. it was so nice. he’s such a sweetie. ahhhh im all crazy about sean. its been so long since we’ve spent and evening together and all alone. it was nice!!!! but he’s been texting me all day on breaks at work ‘cuz i guess he really didnt wanna leave me last night but he had to go home because of work this morning. but he’ll be all busy working working working for like another week. so i’ll hardly get to see him im sure. but thats ok i can live with it. at least i know he thinks of me and wants to be around. i’ll cut him some slack since he’s out there making money. so he can save up and then we can actually be ‘boyfriend/girlfriend’ meh. . .maybe. its kinda weird to think about ‘cuz this is just working out so good as it is. ahhh anyway im off to bed i have to be up extra early tomorrow to take my car in to get the stupid heater and air vents looked at. damn car. . .im too tired for my song of the day. . .*yawn*