i need to lick seans eye. . .uuuhhhhhhh

i want sean ::sniffle:: work is a whore!!!! he was gonna come stay with me wednesday night but no he got a call for a run. blahhhhhhhh and he worked late yesterday so i was laying in bed last night about ready to fall asleep and i get this text message that says ‘good night call me tomorrow’ so then i was all excited and fantasizing about him and i couldnt sleep. stupid head. ahhhhhh i heart that stupid head though. yummy. im so deliriously tired right now. i didnt get much sleep ‘cuz i was up all night thinking about sean. gahhhhhh then i had to get up all early to take my car into the shop to get the vent dealy mabobs fixed. so my sister had to come pick me up and she brought me back home and i cant go back to sleep. im in too good of a mood. i wanna just jump up and down on my bed and dance and scream and think of my sean. i keep expecting him to dissappoint me for some reason. like so far this is all been too good for me. he’s not like other guys i guess. i want to lick his eye. oh yes his prettiful blue eyes. he might be at the wrestling tournament tomorrow morning though. bailey has a big tournament and if sean is off then i’ll probably at least get to see him there. ::sniffle:: im having sean withdrawls even though i hear from him every day. boy i’m a psycho. haha. actually i think he’s a bit of a psycho too. we were talking on the phone the other night and we were talking about sex. and its weird because we both wanna have sex but its like when we have the chance we just dont do it. i mean we get sexual and talk about it and god knows we’ve gotten really really close before but its like we both want to wait more than we want to have sex. like maybe it will mix things up and we wont actually be able to make a really good strong bond if we have sex right away. gahhhhh i dont know but i’ve been horny as ever because of him. normally i can go long times without sex and it wont really bother me but now im going without it and its driving me nuts because i guess i know we could’ve done it lots!!!! i know its driving him crazy cuz he sits there and tells me when he has to get himself off and stuff. i dont particularly know why but he does. he just keeps saying ‘it’ll happen’ and im sure it will but damn him i’m going crazy waiting!!! haha i sound all slutty. woo hoo. we were playing with my ‘naughty dice’ the other night when he was over and he kept switching the dice around so we would get ‘suck or lick’ ‘crotch’ everytime. yeah that was nice. haha ok im done i have to go freak out somewhere else. gahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh sean!!!!!!!!

random song of the day:
song: smells like teen spirit
artist: nirvana
Load up on guns
Bring your friends
It’s fun to lose
And to pretend
She’s overboard
Myself assured
I know I know
A dirty word

Hello
Hello
Hello

With the lights out it’s less dangerous
Here we are now
Entertain us
I feel stupid and contagious
Here we are now
Entertain us
A mulatto
An albino
A mosquito
My libido
Yea

I’m worse at what I do best
And for this gift I feel blessed
Our little group has always been
And always will until the end

Hello
Hello
Hello

With the lights out it’s less dangerous
Here we are now
Entertain us
I feel stupid and contagious
Here we are now
Entertain us
A mulatto
An albino
A mosquito
My libido
Yea

And I forget
Just what it takes
And yet I guess it makes me smile
I found it hard
Its hard to find
Oh well, whatever, nevermind

Hello
Hello
Hello 

With the lights out it’s less dangerous
Here we are now
Entertain us
I feel stupid and contagious
Here we are now
Entertain us
A mulatto
An albino
A mosquito
My libido
Yea