kickass mommy squishface

yep another week. another week without derek. another week without but still looking for a job. when did this happen?? ok ok im just in a mood this morning and i dont know why. ok i do know why but im not admitting it because i’m acting like a big baby. ok i will admit it. . .derek calls me some mornings to wake me up and he didnt call this morning. its not like he is supposed to call every single day. i was just looking forward to it. but instead of waking up to derek i woke up to my dog whinning in my ear. god how annoying. and i stayed up too late so im grumpy from that. whatever. i am watching sealab 2012 right now though. that makes me laugh. oh and i did get a call from this company i might get to go work for for like a week. its just temporary but i mean at least its some money right? and we went to my aunts house last night and they were all talking to me about not having a job and yeah i understand i need to get a job. but i also know that its not going to kill me if i stay out of work for another 2 weeks. i have my money situation handled. and my aunt said oh if you really wanted a job you could have one by now. yeah i know that but i kind of want a job that i enjoy something that pays decent and i will get to stay with for a while. i might as well take the time to find something decent so i dont go and just quit in 2 months. blah im such a suck face and in a horrible mood. i hope these people call me soon so i can go to work today instead of tomorrow. but hey since my day is going so great that they’ll probably change their minds. yes that would be spectacular. fuck its only tuesday. damnit i miss derek. i hardly ever get in these moods lately. like only one other time this whole summer where everything just aggravated me. blah ok ok ok ok ok i need to like just breath and cout to 10 or some crap like that. im really ok i just need to go get in the shower and relax and hopefully the day will get better. i know its not that horrible but when you wake up in a bad mood its just hard to shake that off. growl and stuff. ok im done rambling and complaining. off to look for a job. . .again.