Lately, I’ve been feeling the same.

Feb. 21, 2010
"Has he told you that he loves you?"
"No."
"You’ll get used to it."
Feb. 23, 2010
If you don’t want me looking at your boobs, don’t wear shirts with writing on them.
Same goes for you ass.
Haha, I got my eyebrows done today. Contemplating getting my fingernails done.
My feet are too gross, at the moment.
Feb. 24, 2010
-this is an anthem for the girl that got away.
-this is an anthem for the war of yesterday.
-this is an anthem for the rebel of my youth.
-this is an anthem for the risk of loving you.
Mar. 2, 2010
Utah plan is in place, so much rather live there.
Mom feels badly though. I don’t know what to do.
I do know, however, that staying here another year is out of the fucking question.
I really hate it here.
Be it I have to pull my "you never fucking took care of me in my life, I need you now."
on my dad. Of course I realllllllly do not want to.
That is just how much I cannot stay here. For reals. They’re just too stupid.
Well, not everyone is stupid.
Today I got some work clothes. They’re really ugly, but I look good.
So that is all that matters, am I right?!
I probably am.
It’s a navy skirt suit thing, with shoes and shirts.
They got me some leggy pant things. I also got a skirt at Macy’s.
It was five bucks and kind of cute. It is a medium, too. So, it will fit forever.
Man, this is sort of long. I am writing this on my phone ya know.
So I can update my diary later.
Whatever happened to me using livejournal? Haha. That chick must’ve not been my soulmate.
I am getting abnormally good at typing on this.
I bet I am better at it than most people. I wonder how fast Dave can. Hrm.
I should ask okay, enough for today, I need to save some space for the rest of the week.
 
Mar. 7, 2010 [today]
I am okay. I suppose.
I am really confused, like REALLY confused.
I wish he would just.. be straight up about things, for real.
I don’t quite understand how I am feeling, either.
I don’t really know, I’ve been (meh, this’ll sound really lameo) dreaming about him lately..
and how like.
I don’t know, it’s odd.
So, I am getting back into my ‘oh my, I am so distraught!’ ways.
At least my diary will get interesting again.
I’m kind of (well, actually.. REALLY) lame when nothing is effecting my life in a major way..
so, when I’m depressed I tend to be a little.. more interesting? ahaha.
yeah, lameo.

-suraque
(Anthem- Filo & Peri http://www.youtube.com/watch)