..and everything you had got destroyed.

I’ve been realising stuff lately. Not fun stuff either. The kind of stuff you never want to realise.
Yes, that’s the stuff that has become apparent.
I don’t know if it’s because I am depressed, or what..
but I feel like, I can never amount to anything.. and I will never mean anything to anyone.
No matter how hard I try. When I die. I doubt anyone is really going to be impacted.
I mean, yeah.. my family cares and all that nonsense.. but I don’t know.

I want to do something.
I want to MEAN something.
I’m so tired of being worthless.
I know (well, I assume) everyone feels this way.
It’s hard being nobody, nothing.. zip.

Maybe if I get a job, or start school, or something I won’t feel like this anymore.
I really hope it helps.
Yeah, maybe all I need is a friend?

I feel as though everyone hates me.
I’m super lonely,
and super depressed.

I just don’t know what to do anymore.

-Sur

(If I Were A Boy- Beyonce http://www.youtube.com/watch)