everyday is exactly the same

 today marks my 10 year anniversary on OD. this place has been the one constant in my life, the one thing i always come back to.

i need a change, a big one.  i feel like i’ve been living the same life forever, the same town, the same job.  it’s like the world around me is spinning and shining and i am stuck here, unable to move. everyone moves on and i am here, alone.

i’ve been having bouts of quick, ridiculous urges.  for example, i got my hips pierced.  they’re dermal piercings, so all you see is a rhinestone because the anchor is under the skin.  they’re cute but they hurt like hell and i passed out when the girl did them (THAT was embarrassing) and now they are very sensitive when i bump them on things or catch them on my clothes and they probably just weren’t a good idea.  oh, and i also can’t ever take them out myself since they are anchored into my skin-they have to be cut out with a scalpel.

i’ve also decided i’m buying a new car. don’t exactly need one, as mine is a 2007, but i’ve always hated it and i hate everything else in the world so why not.

oh, and i guess i graduated, so there’s that.

and jay (older guy with kid) turned out to be a complete asshole so that’s done.  i’ve been agreeing to tons of dates on okcupid and then backing out at the last minute.  i swear i’m going to be blacklisted from dating or something.