5/17/07

you are not genuine
you are not pretty
you are not unique
or any of those good things i once told you
and thats not to say i was lying
because i wasnt
i really thought all of those things about you
but it was just what i wanted to see
not what was really there
because there’s nothing going on there
you amount to shit
you are a joke
nothing you say is real
or it might be real for a few minutes
until you make another fucking 180
but what’s that worth?
nothing
not a goddamn thing
just like you
i am attached to you
i had you a certain way in my head
"in my heart" (gag me)
but you are not that person
and you never will be
 
and yet you wanna talk down to me about my problems
you wanna say "wah" to me
like i’m a goddamn baby
but what the FUCK are you?
what the fuck are you?
what do you take care of?
what do you contribute?
what good does your worldly fucking wisdom do for ANYONE
when you cant be straight with someone long enough for them to tie a fucking shoe
huh?
get over yourself
start practicing what you preach
or get a new philosophy that you can actually relate to
it probably involves halftruths and makebelieve and probably a few drugrelatedthings and poorpitifulmethings
 
jesus does not want you for a sunbeam.