Dear Girlfriend

Dear Girlfriend,

 I never ever want to hurt you in anyway. Believe me when I say to you that I’m crazy about you, because I am. I couldn’t be any happier then right now because I’m with you. You absolutely brighten my every dark moment. When I stare into you’re eyes you captivate my bewildered soul in a way that I haven’t felt in a long time. Believe me when I say I want to stay with you, and I want this to last. But I have to make this know, I have to let this out. I want to stay with you, and I am crazy about you, but not in love with you. I adore you. But I have been and am still in love with someone else, and I swear on my life to you that I don’t want to be. I just feel that if I am to claim to be a man that I must do what a real man would do and be honest with you about how I feel, and anything else. You know this girl, I’ve dated her before. I want nothing to do with her, but it’s like she haunts my every thought, my every emotion and I can’t sleep sometimes, or eat, or do anything without feeling this pain, this emptiness deep in my chest and down into the pits of my stomach. I yearn for her and yet then again I don’t. I know this may make no sense to you, and you should be angry with me for not telling you this in the first place, but it is the truth and I have made it known to you now. I hope you can look past it and help me to get over her and to put my whole focus on you, because that is what I want. You make me happy, not her, she brings me nothing but pain. You bring pleasure to my thoughts and dreams whereas she haunts them every chance available. I want you, not her, and I need you more then I think you know. I want to give you everything I can, everything I am, and I pray to God you give me this chance because I swear to you I’ll make it worth you’re while. I’ll make you happy, I’ll be you’re shoulder to cry on, I’ll be you[‘re friend to talk to or give a hug, and I’ll be you’re companion, and hopefully with time my unfortunate love for her will go away and move on to you. It’ll just take time and effort, it’ll take me and you together as a couple to fight through it, if you desire. I know you have no reason to do so, you could leave me right now and I would understand. But before you do that just remember please that I am trying my best to always be thinking of you, to please you, to be with you whenever possible and that means something, that means that i care, and I really do, I care a lot about you and I only hope those feelings grower into something a little more deep and genuine. With Much Love, Ryan aka Goo