I Have A Serious Issue At Hand

My family now hates my girlfriend, and honestly, I don’t blame them because of the way she acted at my graduation party yesterday.  She was completely out of line.  She was totally rude first off by refusing to come into the house at meet my family, which they took as an insult, but they came out to meet her anyways and she was still kind of rude.  Apparently during the whole graduation ceremony Holly was also giving my mother very dirty looks and rolling her eyes and shit, and my mother was not the only one to notice that, but my Godmother and sister did too.  When Holly came into my house my mother introduced everyone but Holly barely even looked at any of them nor ackknowledged the fact that they were there.  Another thing I didn’t know but found out was that while at the party my sister just touched Holly’s arm to get her attention and Holly snapped at her and told her not to touch her.  That really pissed my parents off.  Now my parents had a long talk with me last night about Holly and opened my blinded by love eyes up to some difficult truthes.  Holly has been playin me for a fool from day one.  She scratches her wrists and then shows it proudly to everyone by not wearing sleevs to cover the marks because she wants me to see them so I feel bad, and so that I show her more attention, and trust me I truly believed she was serious about it all, but she’s not and I see this more plainly now.  Then about the guy that supposedly assaults her on a weekly basis, and sometimes comes and breaks in while her brother is there then takes her away to Cincinatti to assault her again then come back, I actually believed all this shit because she made it seems so real, but then again, from how she tells me he’s hit her and slapped her and slammed the door on her foot, there are NO MARKS, no bruises, no nothing, notta.  And believe me, I’ve looked.  This whole time I’ve known about this supposed person I’ve been anraged and ready to find him and literally take his fuckin life away, but now I’m even more pissed because I’m realizing more and more that he doesn’t even exist.  Like how she told me the other night that he would be there sometime at her house in the morning, well I went over there early, and wouldn’t ya know he came over already and left already just before I got there, what a coincidence, and her brother was right in the house too, how come he didn’t say the dude was there.  She’s playin me, she knows by telling me about this supposed guy that I will spend more time with her and get more pissed off and ready to protect her to the extreme. 

Can anybody out there make sense of all this?  And if so tell me why she’ll say to my face that she likes my mother and tries to be friends but when my back is turned she does nothing but rude things to her and make her feel like shit by making fun of her weight and the way she dresses.  Also why she tells me to my face alone that she believes in God and wants to believe in Christ but when she’s around my parents apparently she told them that there was no God, he didn’t exist and if he did he wouldn’t allow bad things to happen to people.  That is being completly two faced.  Why is it that she feels compelled to tell me everytime we meet a family member of mine that my family is a bunch of hicks and makes her disgusted face.  You know how much that pisses me off?!  This is tearing me apart because a small part of me still wants to believe her and the things she’s said and done, but then the huge, realistic side of me that is now untamed by her wrath believes totally different.  She needs help.  My parents also told me that she told them that sometimes she’s looked at a baby and thought about randomly killing it, what the fuck is all that about!?   

This whole time she has made me fall in love with her and has had me twisted around her little finger and walked all over me, and I just took it because I didn’t even realize it was happening until now.  This tears my heart out and yet, now I don’t even know what to do.  Because I still have feelings for her, but I’ve begun to loath her and everything about her as well, and then I’m afraid to break things off because she’s threatened to kill herself if I did, ya see how she manipulates me!??!!??

I gotta go, somebody please give me some feedback, I need it so badly.

Goo