Cant sleep

I have to get up at 8..which is only like 7 hours away.  Im gonna be so tired tomorrow, but I can come home and sleep after I get out of work.  Friday I have to go to a birthday part for my friend from the ukraine..I wont know anyone else there.  We are playing drinking games then going to the old port I guess.  I just hate being the outsider.  I won’t know anyone else.  I’ll have to drink from the moment I walk through the door.  So Im kind of dreading that, but I shouldnt be.  Other than that..I was waitlisted for grad school..which is a good thing, because I wouldnt be ready to accept an offer right now, considering I don’t know what to do lol.  I kinda wanna teach in korea for a year, my friend is there so I know someone, and it willl be cool to go to a new place.  I need a life change.  Last time I moved away to Hungary, I grew up.  I thinned out and just grew up, and 2005 was such a good year for me.  Probably my favorite yet.  Im thinking if I go away, maybe I’ll finally change again and start working out more and put a little muscle on?  I dunno.  Theres something about being away that just changes me.  Of couse, the problem with that is I will have to leave everyone and everything again, which Im not happy about.  But I need a change and a challenge.  And money to pay off my 40000 in student loans lol.

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