Instant

Things have been so weird here lately. I just read my last entry and realized how horrible it must have sounded to anyone who didn’t know me. But then again, when I get depressed things tend to turn out that way. I think that at the time it was a good place to put down what was going through my head, however neurotic it may have seemed…

Although, the good news is that a lot of things have changed in the last 6 weeks. We had fall break last week and I went up to Columbia to visit Danielle. It was perfect timing. I needed to get away and spend some time away from work and home and I also needed some quality time with my good friend Danielle. It was good times and although I don’t think that I’ll be transfering anytime soon, I defintely enjoyed my time there…

When I got back things took a complete 180 with Nathaniel…and I’m glad. A couple more weeks of what we were going through and I would have gone crazy. I guess you could say that things are back to normal now, only better because now we can truely appreciate our time with each other. Maybe it just took a few weeks of barely being with each other for the both of us to realize exactly what it was that we had and why we missed it soo much.

Lauren received a medical discharge from the army (sort of like that, but I think it’s more complicated) because of her asthma. Her doctor couldn’t believe that she was even allowed in the army in the first place. She still moved away…to Texas to be with her boyfriend. So I still feel like I lost a friend, but at least I can call her and go visit on breaks and stuff. I can visit Texas, but I can visit Iraq.

And we passed the infamous week 9 at school, meaning that the semester is officially more than half way over. School still sucks ass, but it makes my days go by faster now that I can count the weeks left in single digits.

So things aren’t perfect, and they never will be that’s just life. But I’m okay with that.