So happy..prob shouldn’t be but whatever

Daniel kissed me last night. It was great! He’s an awesome kisser and I really like him. I feel like I’ve won the challenge. Its a weird feeling. Daniel is like my prize. Please don’t take this the wrong way! I genuinely like him which is why I’m so happy that I have him. It’s a very triumphant feeling to get the guy you like especially when they are attached or committed. 

I should feel bad because I just got with some girls boyfriend. But, oddly enough, I don’t feel that bad. I feel happy more than I feel anything else. Daniel makes me uber happy. I haven’t been this happy in so long. I feel selfish. I don’t know what I feel except that I feel amazingly happy that this amazing guy likes me. 

So today we were in the common lounge chillin..and he starts teasing me…you know what the teasing does. I LOVE TO BE TEASED. He got me so turned on in such a short amount of time. I was like breathing are hard and unable to think/speak anything semi coherent..it was so bad but so amazingly good. Eventually I was like, "wanna go to my room?" and He said yea so we got into my room and fooled around a bit. We were kissing and he took my shirt off and sucked on my nipple. He’s pretty good with his mouth from what I could tell. Anyway…me being the little whore on the inside I am get on my knees and start blowing him after some more intense kissing. I love giving head and I’ve been told I’m really good. So yea I blew him for a while. He has a nice dick. Its like not ugly or weird looking and its a REALLY nice size. Pretty much exactly what I’m used to (on the bigger side but not like scary porn star huge). No lie I was kind of scared he would be kind of small but then when we were kissing I felt it against like my upper thigh and I was like, "Nope definitely not small." Lmao It was fun. Nothing else really happened though. He reached for my jeans but I stopped him. 

I did not want to stop him. I wanted him more than anything. But, I was scared..I’m getting my period either tonight or tomorrow morning and like god forbid it came while we were together..I refuse to let that happen. So I’ll wait another week (or few days…hopefully few days) and see where it goes. So yea that was my rant for the night I’m heading to bed because I’m kind of tired and I have to wake up tomorrow for a 925

I want him so bad. Even if not sexually at least just want him close to me. Holding me the way he does. It would be so nice. But, alas, I am not that lucky. 

I miss him.

Anyway good night OD

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