Wasn’t expecting it

So today Daniel had his like 10 hour EMT class. And afterwards his girlfriend came to visit him.  I knew she was coming for a while and it didn’t bother me like at all. So TOday after his EMT class he came to my room and visited me. We made out pretty intensely. IT was pretty awesome….then his girlfriend called to let him know she was here I guess. When I heard the ringtone my heart kinda sank. More because he was leaving me than anything. I missed him a lot today. 

I spent the day with Eric. We watched a show and just talked all day pretty much. He’s sweet when he wants to be. He’s definitely flirting with me though. He definitely realized what he let go of. He’s always touching me and saying awkward comments and getting all jealous when I talk about Daniel. Its funny really. Yea I’m not going back to him,. It scares me how one day he was head over heels for me..then the next he’s like see ya! Whatever he is a good friend to have and thats about it. I don’t see him any other way anymore thank Goddess. 

Daniel came down to give me a hug a little while ago. I guess that shows who he’s really thinking about. If he’s willing to leave his girl up in his room to come down and give me a hug..i think that means he really likes me. He said that he just felt that I needed a hug because "it just seemed like it." He’s preceptive one isn’t he lol. I’m fine really. It just hit a little more than I thought it would when he walked out to be with his girlfriend. Not really a pain but more of a realization like, "Whoa! He’s actually taken. I’m the other woman." You know. It’s just a weird feeling basically. I was used to being in his situation. I was used to juggling two guys.

I’m just going with the flow of things though. He’s a really sweet guy. Really sexy too. Awesome kisser. He just teased me a little bit and I got incredibly hot and horny. So I’m kind of imagining what it’d be like when he actually put all of his effort into it. He’ll probably have me screaming his name by the time he’s done with me. And now, I’m extremely turned on. 

I know I’ll just think of the fact that he’s probably banging his girlfriend right now 4 floors above and a few doors now from me. See, no longer turned on. Yay! -_- I guess I’m just a little bitter that he is hers. The jealousy and possessiveness is starting to set in. Lol that’s how I know I like someone. I get jealous easily lol. She’s a lucky girl to have such an amazing guy for a boyfriend. For her sake I hope she keeps him around. He’s a good guy. For my sake, well, I’ll take him any day lol.

Anyway I’m off to bed cuz I’m tired and my uterus feels like it’s imploding. You got to love the fews days before you actually start bleeding. Hurts like a bitch. I’m probably going to be bleeding tonight or tomorrow. Sorry if that’s TMI but eh whatever. I kinda hope I don’t bleed. But, I know I will especially since I just got off the pill. I hope he had condoms because I definitely don’t have them lol. 

Night all <3 leave notes

*Sandra*