Birthday Season

I like the vibe of this short time of year. My sister’s bday is March 17th and mine is tomorrow, March 20th. I like the vibe on this short window of time. Actually I guess it’s being extended a bit because my sister’s bday dinner was the 16th and mine will be the 21st.

For Kelly’s bday, me, Kelly, mom, and Trever went to Margaritas in Auburn. We sat at a wicked small table in the bar area but it was fine. The waitress was nice. I had a strawberry cucumber margarita. Just 1. Felt nothing, I could have/wanted to drink like 5 or 6 of them, but I had work the next morning haha. Among other things, I bought her a weighted eye mask. I loved my weighted blanket. When I move back to where ever, I want another one.

Yesterday I had the day off, and it was nice. Like shorts and hoodie weather maybe around 60 degrees? But by the water felt like 50 something with wind? Anyway, for Maine in what is technically still winter, this is amazing. My and I went up to Popham beach and chilled, walked around. It was cold a bit haha, but still not deathly cold to wear shorts. Other people were in shorts and walking around barefoot. I’ve never been to this beach in summer but I want to. I like how its beach and then pine forest, and there are lots of little islands and lighthouses. New profile pic is from there yesterday.

I turn 34 tomorrow. I started this diary 19 years ago when I was 15! Everything has changed, yet some things haven’t changed. I miss my gang I used to hang with. Minus Phil they all got families now so they busy lol. Last night I went to the gym with Phil. Obviously I can’t get to the gym like usual in BKK, and I walk around a lot less- so my shorts from last summer won’t fasten lol. NEED TO FIX THIS ASAP.

So many ppl from Gray at the Planet Fitness in Windham I know from HS. I wonder if they recognize me? idk

Also, I’m missing my independence. I haven’t gotten laid in 5 months. I know when I’m in maine the whole no driving and staying with fam in the woods doesn’t allow it. What’s interesting is-the longer I go with out it, the less I feel like I need it? I’m so sick of hookups so this virgin lifestyle is everything.

one fucking ANNOYING thing about gay guys is how they expect sex. Like is it so hard to find friends u can laugh with, chill with, and get ratchet with without having sex with them? DO BETTER GAYS. I feel like I’m coming out of hibernation a bit with the warm weather coming tho.