Ches 18, 1492 – Berna’s Journal (Cylindrical Shard Encounter)

I am such an idiot! I KNEW today was going to be dangerous. I KNEW IT – and I STILL messed up. Now there’s some stupid magical shard of metal inside of me, Robyn is so angry he could kick puppies, and even Essy is super upset with me. I mean…I’M upset with me. Why didn’t I just leave the stupid thing alone? But nooooo…I just. had. to. touch it. *sigh* I need to stop thinking that Robyn can save me from anything. He’s just as fallible as the rest of us, more common sense – but he’s not all knowing. What if I endangered the baby? I HATE THIS. No more being stupid. I don’t have to go back to being Bern – but…something has to give. If Robyn’s anger is any indication, its me. *I* have to give.