untitled poem for krystal

your love was here
then it disappeared
i shouldnt love you
i shouldnt care
your memory isnt supposed to haunt me
but it does
my love shouldnt exist
why am i attached to you
why cant i get you out of my head
i cant hold you
all the “i love you”s
gone from your mouth
said to someone else
gave your heart to her
i should move on
yet i want you as my wife
til death do us part
your nickname for me
being said to her
how many times do you
look at my picture
dream of me
think of me
i dream of you every night
think of you every day
look at your picture
every few hours
you are still on my mind
and inside my heart
you still hold my heart
in the palm of your hand
my future
rests with you
your decisions
my dreams, hopes, and wishes
dont matter anymore
i cant leave you
I LOVE YOU, KRYSTAL
NOTHING WILL EVER CHANGE THAT