I can think again!

I don’t know what my weight is right now because I haven’t weighed myself in 2 days!  I ate 3 meals yesterday!  I ate breakfast today.

I don’t know what has sparked this new desire to recover, but for the moment I am very gun-ho to recover.  I’m still b/p, but only about 3/4 times a day, which is better than the 8 times it was a week ago.  Plus I am keeping food down again.

I’m working with a dietition to eat balanced meals.  I’m working with my therapist.  I didn’t take my meds for a couple of days over the weekend and I really felt the negative effects of not taking them.  I started taking them again on Sunday night and yesterday I was able to be so productive.  Granted, I still did b/p and I know I will today, but I do it and it’s done and I’m able to still eat a few meals so my body is getting nurished again, slowly but surely it is. 

My meds work almost instantly.  I am able to focus on things, like schoolwork.  I like going to classes and focusing.  I can do the reading and being the sad art history dork I am, I like doing the reading.  Yesterday I was so productive.  I went to the grocery store.  I read for 3 classes.  I wrote a response paper due for tomorrow.  I worked on my characters for my screenplay.  I showered.  I did crunches and relaxed.  Plus I ate 3 meals and a couple of snacks.  I mean, look at what I was able to accomplish!  Yesterday was just a terrific day.

And today, so far I’ve gone to class, printed out my papers, APPLIED TO STUDY ABROAD and it’s only 2pm.  I wasn’t able to wake myself up early enough to go running, BUT I didn’t punish myself for it.

I’m being productive!  I’m looking forwards to the future.  It’s amazing.  I’m working on recovery.  I really am.  I love my art history classes.  I just find everything about them so absorbing!  I have an idea for my screenplay class.  I’ve decided that I’m going to develop a family drama, so that means I have to write the pilot episode and a 2nd episode throughout the semester.

I need to hold onto this feeling of accomplishment!  I have so much more to accomplish today and with the rest of my life!

I’ll be able to update more regularly once I get the internet hooked up in our house on Friday.

Have a good day everyone!

~Rachel