Hanging on: but the thread is stronger

I am writing this primarily in thanks to those who have been following my journey and those who have given such encouraging responses. I am not sober. I will admit that. But I am at a stage of tapering.

I am slowly lowering my intake. I noticed withdrawal symptoms and after working in the emergency department have seen the effects. My greatest fear has been delirium tremens which I have witnessed countless of times. Therefore, tapering was decided personally to be my best option. The comments I have recieved here have truly encouraged and strengthened me. I thank all of you so much. Words of the English language cannot express it enough.

I have tapered down to half a fifth of alcohol (Crown is my preference, for those that do not know). Thanks to the enlightenment of those who have commented, I have realized this is a huge step. Especially considering I started a short time ago with working on becoming sober.

I know I promised to detail my negative childhood experiences which I have lived with for the last twenty years. I’m sorry to break my promise, but I don’t think I am ready. I need to arrange my thoughts and I think I will begin entries by beginning with my current sobriety circumstances then follow with the beginning of my childhood traumas until the present.

I don’t know if anyone one is even interested in reading this but it’s okay if not… I need to get this out. I need to have this outlet. And so far, it is working. The comments I received have helped the greatest. But don’t take that as an obligation. It’s simply part of my thoughts and thankfulness to those that listen.. Having someone listen really does help.

Once again, thank you kind strangers.